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So as title says need space to vent off....Recently felt very 'dead' in my faith, I still love God, I still love Jesus...I just haven't been praying, reading, fighting the flesh or anything and more and more I am finding myself tired of everything... I am getting tired of church, tired of youth group, tired, as I said, of everything, I just feel I need a new thing, a new life perhaps...My friends hardly make an effort with me, they never text, they never facebook me, they never meet up with me, I just feel like all I am doing is exisiting and I ain't happy... and I know in terms of my faith I need to give myself a shake, and get up again, I just dislike praying over my life at the moment, because I feel I am stuck in the same old, and I feel if I pray over change, I dream about what my hearts desiring and it hurts cause I don't see anyway to get it....I guess I have a longing to feel like I have what I desire, to feel contentment, and feel like I am blessed, I am blessed - im alive, i have a home etc, just I do not feel blessed as abundantly as Jesus stated He came to give us...I feel like im constant lack and disappointment... now you may say, maybe your standards for your friends are too high, well my standards equate to what I myself give, I need social contact, I actually feel like I am going crazy being alone all the time, I am even at point where i wanna cry in frustration tbh...i dont know what point in this is but I need to put it somewhere but my head.