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I bring these questions up a lot because I am OCD and am constantly (not by choice) re-evaluating, questioning, examining every aspect of my life and past...which inevitably raises more and more questions.
To start, many of you know that I used ouija boards in the past and I believe it brought demonic activity into my life. What frustrates me the most is that at the same time was life was spiraling out of control, I was also suffering the effects of cold turkeying antidepressant medication, benzodiazepines (because I was tired of the side-effects). Not only is this an incredibly stupid thing to do, it is also potentially deadly, and can cause permanent brain damage. Because of this, every time I think back to what happened in the past, I always think, well maybe it was just severe toxic withdrawal symptoms that I was mistaking for demonic activity because my mother was convinced it was. Or maybe the enemy is so cunning and clever it knew what it was doing the entire time so it would confuse me further and make me suspect withdrawal symptoms instead of demon activity? Or maybe I'm just going all over the place.
My question: When things were getting bad, I decided to go to church one morning because I was starting to think that this was something demon-related. When I got into the church, I was filled with an indescribable terror and horror of internal agitation that had me fleeing the church and walking up and down streets in mental anguish. Now, one could surmise this was demons acting up, or possibly a side-effect called akathesia which results in an internal terror and inability to sit still. I was convinced it was demons acting up because I was in a church, BUT, I just realized that a couple weeks before this event, I was in a church service for a funeral, and had no issues (granted, I was in bad shape, but I wasn't panic-stricken out of nowhere). If it was demon-activity, why did it act up in one church, and not as aggressively or at all during the church service for the funeral?
What do you think this was? And do you have any stories of demonic activity?
Thank you all.
To start, many of you know that I used ouija boards in the past and I believe it brought demonic activity into my life. What frustrates me the most is that at the same time was life was spiraling out of control, I was also suffering the effects of cold turkeying antidepressant medication, benzodiazepines (because I was tired of the side-effects). Not only is this an incredibly stupid thing to do, it is also potentially deadly, and can cause permanent brain damage. Because of this, every time I think back to what happened in the past, I always think, well maybe it was just severe toxic withdrawal symptoms that I was mistaking for demonic activity because my mother was convinced it was. Or maybe the enemy is so cunning and clever it knew what it was doing the entire time so it would confuse me further and make me suspect withdrawal symptoms instead of demon activity? Or maybe I'm just going all over the place.
My question: When things were getting bad, I decided to go to church one morning because I was starting to think that this was something demon-related. When I got into the church, I was filled with an indescribable terror and horror of internal agitation that had me fleeing the church and walking up and down streets in mental anguish. Now, one could surmise this was demons acting up, or possibly a side-effect called akathesia which results in an internal terror and inability to sit still. I was convinced it was demons acting up because I was in a church, BUT, I just realized that a couple weeks before this event, I was in a church service for a funeral, and had no issues (granted, I was in bad shape, but I wasn't panic-stricken out of nowhere). If it was demon-activity, why did it act up in one church, and not as aggressively or at all during the church service for the funeral?
What do you think this was? And do you have any stories of demonic activity?
Thank you all.
