I find independence bittersweet. I love how God has transformed my life. My faith increases as I see the development of morals and self control where there was none. I'm determined to seek God's best through obedience. I put my armor on every day, yet sometimes it gets heavy. My flesh remembers what it's missing and it hurts. How does everyone cope with their temptations....with their loneliness? I stand firm in my faith, have high standards for my future spouse, and am willing to wait on God's will. But how do you grieve over the loss of human contact in the mean time?
Don't grieve. Be thankful for God's love because that is what truly fulfills your need. Spiritual love, not fleshly pleasure, is what gives you peace. I bounced here from another post where you used the word "addict." I used to have a crazy lifestyle, but I've been sober and celibate for years now. I was born into the Catholic religion which I left when I was young, but I used to think it was strange that the priests and nuns were forced to be celibate. Now I understand the benefit, but I think it should be by choice to enhance the spirit not mandated by religious law. Marriage is a blessing, but so is celibacy. I recommend studying the word of God when you feel your fleshly desire trying to overcome the spirit. The spirit of God coming through the word of God overcomes fleshly desire. God bless you, sister.
"Now the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, meekness, self-control" (Galatians 5:22,23)