Was God Telling Me Something Last Night?

I asked God to allow me to open a passage in the Bible that would pertain to me and be something that I need to read. I opened up to The Book of Job and my eyes started reading Chapter 17, and I didn't really like what I was reading, nor did I understand it fully. I tried again and opened to Ezekiel Chapter 28, or around there. I kept trying several times after that and basically came upon the same pages almost every time...now, keep in mind I was subconsciously trying to get somewhere in the the middle of the Bible, so that could explain why I kept getting the same pages, or around there but still, I read things that made me feel like I am a hypocrite and that I am going to essentially fall short of salvation in the end and be surrounded by the wicked. Strikes a little too close to home considering a lot of my friends could be classified as "wicked." Unfortunately, I don't have any other friends to talk to and am horrible at making them. I've given one family a prayer book to help them combat what I know is demonic activity in their home, and hopefully that will help. I also read something about speaking poorly of other people...I try hard not to but some days I lose it and am judgmental or angry or fall into temptation from time to time. I try hard but apparently I'm failing? One passage that I read was that I am surrounded by the wicked, but that my prayers are righteous. I always worry that my prayers are not righteous because I have OCD and intrusive thoughts, etc. But then it said something about how death is upon my eyelids and that I only have a few years left to live. I do feel unwell a lot of the time, particularly for someone as young as I am, and did have a medical crisis not too far in the past, but I don't know if that pertains to me, either. Am I misinterpreting what I've read? It was pretty scary and not as comforting as I would've hoped. Sometimes God scares me. I hear of testimonies of unconditional love and light, but sometimes what I read in the Bible is scary...perhaps man has failed to achieve the right words when describing God...or mistakes through translations? I also feel like hanging out with certain people is going to allow demons to enter my life by just being around those people....does pleading the Blood prevent that? I really have no other friends and sitting in the house without interaction is torturous. Sorry for the jumbled up, sometimes incoherent rant. All thoughts and insights into those passages are appreciated.

Thanks

Job 17 is about how he feels after God allowed satan to take everything away. Exek 28 is about a bad dude, the prince of Tyre. Do either of those apply to you? I bet you still have your home, food, clothes, probably even a car, computers, and I know you're not a wicked prince.

We used to tell a story, about the dangers of the "dip the Script" game (that's the joking name for trying to open the Bible at random). A guy tried it and he got two verses. "Judas hung himself" (Matt. 27:5); "Go thou and do likewise" (Luke 10:37).

Satan loves to tempt people in their late teens to think they are always in sin. He tries to get them thinking about themselves too much to think about Jesus. Everybody gets OCD when they try to pray; the devil has a vested interest in keeping you from praying, remember?

You obviously love God, or you would not be looking for His will for your life so hard. God doesn't need to scare you into loving Him, you already do. And He doesn't need to scare you with death; that just means happily ever after in heaven.

Fear and confusion are not the result of what God does. And at your age, you are in a growing process; you will find out who you should and should not hang around with. Be patient and let God unfold in your life.

Translation issues, problems with human language for God to express Himself, yes. But fixing those is not so much the answer, as knowing we have a loving God, and a Good Shepherd who does not drive His sheep, but leads them, and leads them to sparkling water and lush vegetation. Use the Bible together with prayer, and wait for the joy and the peace, and the love, as you search. Stop worrying, God knows you better than you know yourself. Keep the intention you have to accept His love and to love Him back.

I have tried what you tried before as well. When it was a bad scripture, I would pass it off as "Well, that wasn't God speaking, I was just being silly" but when it was a good scripture I'd think it was for me.. That shows that it's just me and not God.

I think a part of it might be laziness. We want God's instructions for us, but we arn't even willing to actually sit down and read the Bible from cover to cover. We just want it all delivered in a quick shot without putting in any effort to get to know Him, His character, what He has done in History and what He wants from us.

It's funny cos if God sent His message as a DVD, we'd all have seen it in full. But cos He sent words we struggle to sit down and read it.. So I think God's message that pertains to you would possibly be something similar to what I think it is for me... Something like, "I have already sent you My Word which pertains to you.. It's called "the Bible", go read it." lol

Just opening the Bible for a bit here or there, is like telling the best friend you will ever know, that you only want parts of him.
I know, been there and done that .
Like christianguy said, just read the bible, beginning to end.
When God set this on my heart to do, I didnt think I could, and the old testament was a bit hard to understand at times.
But as I continued, it was like meeting God face to face, and soon He became my comfort, help and amazingly, peace.
It was the best work of faith I was ever called to.
Because you will soon learn, that God's message is already with you, you just had to get to know Him.
I hope this will bring you, the same peace, help, joy and love of God, His Holy Spirit, in Jesus, that it brought me.

God bless
pickles