Welcome LoverofJesus - I pray we can encourage you as a part of the family of God!! Its not only nice to fellowship it is a necessity to fellowship. How else can our feet get cleansed from the stench of the world system? How else can we spur one another on in love and good deeds?
Have you ever not tried being strong in your faith? But rather, be weak to the point of complete surrender? Completely bare and vulnerable to God? For it is then He lifts you up in Himself and fortifies your character like steel; and faithfulness in Jesus Christ's victory is launched in you as well!
When I was young in my faith in Christ I tried to have faith, but now I realize I only need have surrender. Myself wholly consecrated to Him and He will give me faith that creates in me His Character and demeanor. The only struggle then is obedience ... but if we are surrendered that too is His Victory found in us! Then, if God is for us who can be against us?
I pray your strength is found in His joy - so that His relentless standard of excellence will breed freedom from the Tyranny of the Urgent as He transforms you into His likeness. Be encouraged Sister - He loves you that much! May God Richly Bless you here.