I am saved.

Hello everyone. My name is Nathaneal and I have been saved by our savior Jesus christ. All my life, starting from when I was a child and was brought to church I carried doubt. I was always seeking answers in the wrong places, always trying to flip meanings so that I could not see the truth. I was once an atheist. Then through some weird happenings I knew God existed. Still I fought his love, the devil was already trying to take me. Satan clouded my mind, made me believe that Lucifer was the good one in the story. I fought the truth so hard, it beat me down, made me weak. I even went so far as to claim that I was a satanist.. Curse his evil trickery for this because now that I know God. I can not help but be angry at the Devil with alot of my being. I know God is love, but is it wrong to hate something that is against him with such a fiery passion that you want to end it? Even after accepting Jesus into my heart, evil still attacks me. I now know how to tell the difference now, but still it gets tiring and I just want to know some ways that I can stay clear on my path to God.

Congratulations my friend God bless!

Because you dont have to fight in a battle that never existed but in your mind. Believe that the battle with Satan has been won by Jesus.. You don't have to deal with Satan anymore because he is no more than a looser.. Focus on God and God alone, keep your faith, read His word every day.. Never ever think that there is a fight, if you do so, you'd only get trapped by Satan's way of ruining you new relationship with Christ.. smile brother Worry less, worship more..

I don't believe that the battle is over my friend. It saddens me to say this.. bu from what I can see in the world. There is a lot more saving that needs to have happen.

Dont entertain your anger to Satan anymore, the more you think about him, the higher the chance of you doubting again.. Faith can move mountains..

...when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.
James 1: 6-8

I do see where you're coming from. I really do. It's just that I feel deep down that I was made this way for a reason, even with the hate.

I also see the world the same way but I'm holding on to God.. He says 'Be still and know that I am your God.'
It's hard to explain the world.. But I'm leaning not on my own understanding but His.. because His ways and thoughts are much much better than ours.. I'm sure God is in control, we are inscribed into his palms and I know that God is making a way for the saving to happen..

Thank you for that. I will surely work on my anger..

Welcome to CC, NateDawg. I praise God that you are saved!

Welcome to the site! I think by the battle already being won, I think don't think he meant that in the end God is going to triumph. It may still be raging now but in the end it's going to be won. I hope you find encouragement here

Hello and welcome,I hope you enjoy it here.