I've Fallen and I Can't Get up - Seriously

Hi First, you are not alone. I can relate to a lot of what you said about the long distance stuff. That's never easy to fall for someone so far away. And anything you've done physically, its obvious you realize it was not right. That's where repentance comes in. You've never messed up too much for forgiveness. God wants to forgive you, just go to Him with a humble heart and ask Him to not only forgive you but to help you stay strong in the future. Its important to set clear boundaries for yourself and start dates with prayer, that way you take every step to protect yourself from entering into a physical relationship only meant for marriage.

I've been there myself emotionally. Sometimes its hard to figure out how to bring someone special into your life and still make God first. Just remember God never changes. He will never hurt you. He will never fail you. His love lasts far longer than any man's and it doesn't require anything of you. God deserves to be first in your life always, no matter the circumstances.

Cry out to Him and allow him to heal you. If its in His will for this relationship to work, then it will. No need to stress about it sweetheart. I'm praying for you to have strength and I'm praying God comforts you during this tough time.

"The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18

I've have depression and have had anxiety attacks, and still sometimes anxiety tries to get me. The problem is most people turn to God wanting Him to just ZAP make their lives better, change everything and will be peachy keen. But this is not the way God intends it to be, nor has He ever promised this. If you want change, then do something to create change, not just sit and wait on God to change it for you.
Get into counseling, make some friends. Eat right, exercise, get on a regular sleep pattern (all things proven to help depression). Try praying. Doesn't mean you have to get on your knees and spend 20 minutes in prayer. Just take a minute to ask God for help here and there, just to start.
If you want to see change, start moving forward. Get the help you need, reach out, do what you need to improve.

It sounds like you are clincially depressed. You need to see a doctor, a counselor, and hopefully a pastor. It is not easy to sort out these issues, but God really can help you. He will walk you through this valley.

As for this man from another country. Put him on ignore, block him and forget about him. I have a friend who is conducting a long distance relationship that has gone on for 10 years. She is miserable, but she can't seem to dump him. She is not a Christian, and you say you are. So that will make all the difference.

As for your Bible - you need to push through the empty words, and pray the Holy Spirit will illuminate the words for you. I highly recommend the Psalms. When I was in a deep depression caused by the pain and suffering of untreated Rheumatoid Arthritis, God told me to read the Psalms. I read 5 a day for 2 years, and I began to see that suffering is a human condition, but God is there through it all.

"5 Why am I so depressed?
Why this turmoil within me?
Put your hope in God, for I will still praise Him,
my Savior and my God." Psalm 42:5 HCSB

Hey Sadkitty,

A lot of people know your struggle in their own way. A few things:

I think if that were true, you wouldn't be here. Time in the gutter zaps people of there hope, and sometimes of their faith, but dropping them altogether is a choice, just as it is a choice to maintain hope and faith.

I wish I had a cut and dry answer for you. Reading about what He's done, believe it or not, sometimes is exactly what we need. If we believe His word, it resonates with us. It changes us.

We are separated from Him though, and that's a sad reality we must endure until we're out of this world. But this isn't to say He isn't there for you. A relationship goes both ways.

Hell is not a sure prospect for you as far as you know. There is a lot to talk about here, but I'll leave it at that for now.

There it is! You're this close *gestures small distance with fingers* to actually crying out to God. Instead, you're here, crying out to us - and that's not a bad thing. We are to bear one another's burdens, after all. I hope that this plea of yours reaches Him and that He reaches you.

There are a lot of cool, wise, Godly people here, Sadkitty. I know what willful isolation is like, and I know what it's like to face God and His children and go "WHAT THE HECK?!" But if you push through it, you develop character, and you never lose hope nor faith, it can get better. We're not given an easy lot by following Him, but taking up your cross is worth it.

Here if you need to talk.

You're welcome here, and my inbox is always open to you if you ever just want to talk about anything. It's hard to go it alone. And I don't think you have to anymore. We're here for you. I'm not sure what to add, I but I'm praying for you too.

Dear,
please note that the marriage is an exclusive territory of God. What do you want - to show Him who you like and He to make him to love you or to wait Him to choose the right person for you? Although I was reminded recently that there is no recipe how to understand what is the God will I think you will know. Why? Because:
1. If the man is the right one - all of your experience will be fruit of the spirit.
2. If there is fruit of the flesh only - it is not the right one! So why you are suffering? Just say thank to God that He made you escape!!!

Here are the fruits - Galatians 5 chapter
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[TD="class: lt, width: 100%"] 19. Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are [these]; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness,[/TD]
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[TD="class: lt, width: 100%"] 20. Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies,[/TD]
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[TD="class: lt, width: 100%"] 21. Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told [you] in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.[/TD]
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[TD="class: lt, width: 100%"] 22. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,
23. Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.
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just look at it and answer honestly - of what fruit was that relationship? Stand up girl and start living! HUG YOU!
God bless!