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hello.i am a new member.i am in alot of agony being seperated from my husband.i am a Christian,he is not.before our marriage there were signs of his anger and not being saved yet i ignored them.i shouldnt have.of course women think their love can change a man and this is what i believed.i was wrong.the abuse and anger got worse.very shortly after the marriage he became verbally abusive,threatening to always leave me,name calling,ignoring me and trying to control me.i had to quit my job because of my emotional state.i was constantly depressed and fearful.always walking on eggshells.i finally had to get a restraining order to make him leave.i also lost my current job that very same day!!double whammy!he got his own place a few doors down and he lives there with his 2 kids(10 and 16) and i live with my 7 yr old.the anguish and despair and pain i have went through trying to heal my emotions and deal with all the humiliation and rejection has been daily.i am getting stronger but still in need of a job.my husband and i talk and spend time together.i will not seek divorce and he isnt either.his pain and anger comes from a horrible childhood,the death of his oldest son in 2006,and probably guilt from how he treated him and his first wife who passed in 2004.i am praying for a MIRACLE as it is the only thing that will save him.its a very lonely and painful path but i am waiting for the promises of my Father to save my husband and reconcile us to eachother.my choice was to marry someone who surely has repaid my love with hate.please be careful who you date and especially who you marry.
