A
hello my name is Brandon, i am a brand new member. i got on here because if feel that i need to share with other Christians my experiences.
to start, i am 23 yeas old, in the navy, currently on deployment. within the last two years there have been many life changing experiences, i lost my dad to a heart attack, my mom had her leg amputated due to blood clots that nearly killed her, my son was born, i got a divorce, i was diagnosed as being an alcoholic. but all of these things so seemingly bad have led me to where i am now. trough the doors of AA i began to turn my life around, i got sober, and i gained an even higher contact with god. the things that i learned from all of this that i will share shortly had and is still having a huge impact on my life, i hope by you reading trough all of this you will get something out of this that will help you.
lessons learned
1 what i say and do to others regardless of their outward actions affects my spiritual contact with god( do unto others as you would like to be done to you)
2 what i hold against others affects my spiritual contact with god (resentments, please forgive and forget)
3 the things i put in front of me affects my spiritual contact with god ( ie. games, tv, music, these things are called idols, although not specifically called out)
4 confusion is not a barrier for my spiritual contact with god (even if you don't know what your doing, he does)
there are may more but these are the main ones, the biggest thing tool that i used after all was, or at least as much as could be, cleared up with fore mentioned plus some i began using centering prayer.
my first conscience contact with god
while on my ship, standing duty, watching the armory i practiced some centering prayer, at that point i requested a question from the person i was speaking to prove who i was talking to. the question given to me was " what is something that was given to you that you could not give someone else?"
second contact,
once again on the ship i requested some knowledge, he gave me a riddle. " it is not our minds that are consumed by the fire, it is the fire that is consumed by our minds" ...check out exodus 3 for a hint to that one.
as time went by i began to grow more fearful, as much contact as i was getting with god, i was also opening myself up to other spirits. i began to notice that the world we live in is the host for our bodies but our spirits lye within us, with everyone's spirit, almost as if our contact with our spirit opens a window to the world all spirits live in. i know it sounds confusing but its hard for me to explain, its hard for any human to explain, and even if i was able to explain it our minds wouldn't be able to comprehend it.
recently i had contact a spirit i know only as death, as a challenge to that spirit, to find wither or not he was in fact death, i requested for him to kill me. mind you my thought process on this was that no other task or question could be asked from someone as this, so that i would know for sure who i was talking to. immediately my heat began to hurt, my lips went numb, i had a hard time breathing, i felt as if i was going to die, i asked god to help me, to save me, to take death away from me, and he did. this was not done without a mark of some kind.
i saw death and lived to tell the tale, every since then i have seen someone walk up behind me, i turn around and no ones there, i get a strange sensation, and i know it is death. at first i didnt know what it meant, i told my friend i think some is about to die, someone close to me, naturally he was freaked out over what i had told him, two days later i found out that TWO of my best friends had died.
more recently i felt death walking up behind me again, although not as strong of a sensation, it was still one of death, the next week i looked in the obituaries in my local town only to find that another friend of mine had died 2 after i felt death walk up behind me.
in closing this posting was not intended to ruffle any feathers, but to simply share what i have experienced, in as much detail, and with as much as i hold to be true.
to start, i am 23 yeas old, in the navy, currently on deployment. within the last two years there have been many life changing experiences, i lost my dad to a heart attack, my mom had her leg amputated due to blood clots that nearly killed her, my son was born, i got a divorce, i was diagnosed as being an alcoholic. but all of these things so seemingly bad have led me to where i am now. trough the doors of AA i began to turn my life around, i got sober, and i gained an even higher contact with god. the things that i learned from all of this that i will share shortly had and is still having a huge impact on my life, i hope by you reading trough all of this you will get something out of this that will help you.
lessons learned
1 what i say and do to others regardless of their outward actions affects my spiritual contact with god( do unto others as you would like to be done to you)
2 what i hold against others affects my spiritual contact with god (resentments, please forgive and forget)
3 the things i put in front of me affects my spiritual contact with god ( ie. games, tv, music, these things are called idols, although not specifically called out)
4 confusion is not a barrier for my spiritual contact with god (even if you don't know what your doing, he does)
there are may more but these are the main ones, the biggest thing tool that i used after all was, or at least as much as could be, cleared up with fore mentioned plus some i began using centering prayer.
my first conscience contact with god
while on my ship, standing duty, watching the armory i practiced some centering prayer, at that point i requested a question from the person i was speaking to prove who i was talking to. the question given to me was " what is something that was given to you that you could not give someone else?"
second contact,
once again on the ship i requested some knowledge, he gave me a riddle. " it is not our minds that are consumed by the fire, it is the fire that is consumed by our minds" ...check out exodus 3 for a hint to that one.
as time went by i began to grow more fearful, as much contact as i was getting with god, i was also opening myself up to other spirits. i began to notice that the world we live in is the host for our bodies but our spirits lye within us, with everyone's spirit, almost as if our contact with our spirit opens a window to the world all spirits live in. i know it sounds confusing but its hard for me to explain, its hard for any human to explain, and even if i was able to explain it our minds wouldn't be able to comprehend it.
recently i had contact a spirit i know only as death, as a challenge to that spirit, to find wither or not he was in fact death, i requested for him to kill me. mind you my thought process on this was that no other task or question could be asked from someone as this, so that i would know for sure who i was talking to. immediately my heat began to hurt, my lips went numb, i had a hard time breathing, i felt as if i was going to die, i asked god to help me, to save me, to take death away from me, and he did. this was not done without a mark of some kind.
i saw death and lived to tell the tale, every since then i have seen someone walk up behind me, i turn around and no ones there, i get a strange sensation, and i know it is death. at first i didnt know what it meant, i told my friend i think some is about to die, someone close to me, naturally he was freaked out over what i had told him, two days later i found out that TWO of my best friends had died.
more recently i felt death walking up behind me again, although not as strong of a sensation, it was still one of death, the next week i looked in the obituaries in my local town only to find that another friend of mine had died 2 after i felt death walk up behind me.
in closing this posting was not intended to ruffle any feathers, but to simply share what i have experienced, in as much detail, and with as much as i hold to be true.