I've just hit the trifecta for losing all of my plans. (I'm not upset about this. I can't say the same thing for John on this last thing.) I had three:
1. Open presents for John on his birthday. (He got sick instead, but I finally gave him his stocking at the start of the Super Bowl.)
2. Have him in rehab by the Super Bowl, so he can enjoy it with guys. (Found out it didn't bother him anyway, because he never watches the Super Bowl with guys. Just me.)
3. Have him direct me when it's time to plant the garden on May 1st. (Not going to happen.)
We finally got together with the right people (first his PT, and then the wing's primary doctor) to find out what's happening.
Rehab is gone (for now) again. Apparently needing a pint of blood per day is problematic even for his team. (I was told by a weekend doctor it wouldn't be so tough on him losing blood when he came home because he'd be stronger then. Sure, I know that sounds off, but much of what I've been told was off.) So they're back to looking for a bleeder. They might not find it. They'll check out his full intestines for it, but it's been an off-and-on problem since the beginning and they cannot take him off blood thinners. Think about it. How many veins and arteries does one body have? It could be anywhere but his brain.
Sooo, there goes rehab until they can figure out what's wrong.
That's not what probably upsets him the most. (Although it does scare him that he loses the slot again. I've told him God got him the slot twice now, so I suspect it's God's plan there will be one when he finally goes. Now that we know the rest, this is one of those things that we really need God's help on, because there is no second choice.)
His PT told him the rest. She tried to get him to stand today, and couldn't get past him sitting. He can't sit because he's got a bleeder, and they keep not feeding him when they worry about the bleeder, so he has no calories to work with. His blood pressure goes too low. He gets too dizzy sitting to even sit, once more stand. And she said since it has taken her six weeks just to get him this far, rehab won't be weeks. It will be months. They have to get him to the point of being able to walk into this house, which includes walking up our five front steps.
I've had three months of stepbacks to see God working everything out just right. He hasn't. I'm bummed about him not getting into our garden. I'm sure he's devastated. He was talking about plans to learn how to become a grill master this summer with our new charcoal grill. He's been talking about that for three weeks, and this from a man who has only had a couple of half teaspoons of applesauce since November 19th, so he was really looking forward to that.
Add to that, We're having the world's weirdest snowstorm today, so I had to leave right after he heard that. (It snowed on again off again last night, but only a small layer of slush on the car as proof this morning. The rest is supposed to start this afternoon and continue on through the night. Just the night, not wee hours of the morning. And final accumulations will be 3"-6". Some rain mixed in, and then temperatures drop enough for the next few days that the highs won't ever be high enough to melt whatever we get. So, I had to get home to get a parking spot early. That and if I stay too long with him one day, the next day I pay for it in pain.)
I really have gotten to the point of God always, always gets his will, but his will is always, always for our good, but poor John. Easy for me to say that. I can get up and scratch my foot if I won't to. He can't.
We really need the rehab to be the free one now. After 20 days it will cost us $165 a day. I didn't think we could financially afford five weeks, (including those first 20 days of free.) I absolutely know we can't do "months." I know my other plans hit the trifecta for not happening. Keep praying the free rehab is God's plan!