I know what it's like to feel this way. I've been up to the edge of the abyss and back a few times. Mumoffour, tell someone! Tell someone whom you trust about the crisis you are going through. Your kids need you and can't afford to lose you!
I have prayed for you but I think you should talk to God yourself.
PSALM 23
The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
[SUP]2 [/SUP] He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
[SUP]3 [/SUP] he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
[SUP]4 [/SUP]Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me. [SUP]5 [/SUP]You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
[SUP]6 [/SUP]Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.