Hopeless

I have left letters to all my children telling them how proud I am of how strong they are but that I was weak and in this last week I have been telling them how sometime things just can't go on they now that I have been in pain for a very very long time I tried and tried to get help bar from not going into hospital I know they will be sad but they will be better off as I couldn't be the mum that I was to them before I

Dear Jesus, I am setting mumofour into your loving arms.
Hold her close to your heart, hold her children close to her heart and yours.

Help her dear Jesus, for you know all she needs, stop her dear Jesus, for you know all her children's needs.
Open her heart dear Jesus, and fill her with your healing love, streangthen her dear Jesus, so that in you Lord Jesus, she will overcome this.
Dont let her hurt her children this way dear Jesus, lift her up and walk her to the help she needs.
Then dear Jesus, delight her with your love, heal her by your name, and show her the life you desire for her, filled with your grace and victory over every difficulty.
Thankyou Lord Jesus, Father in Heaven, for bringing to her all that is your glory!

God bless
pickles

Hungry I'm sorry if I have made you angry with my cop out but there's nothing more for me to say and yes thank you for the prayers for my children

I must ask. What is making you feel this way?

Mumoffour, I am mom to five children, and have lived every day for over twenty years in constant and severe pain.
So Im saying this to you in all that is the love of Jesus.
Dont you dare use your pain to put the pain of losing you upon your children's lives.
Because it will be they who will carry your pain now for the rest of their lives, no matter how well you spoke to them in those letters.
I know, I faced this same choice many years ago when I thought I could not face another day in pain.
But, a freind took their life, like you are wanting to.
I saw the agony, pain and anger those children, and the family went though.
I knew then I could not do this to my children.
I called on Jesus to show me how to overcome and live life despite the pain.
And you know what! Jesus did!
I know you may think Im being hard on you, but I believe in Jesus that I can, because I live and haved lived exactly what you are now.
Call someone. get help now!
I want you to know that the joy, rewards and love that awaits you is so worth all the pain you will live.
But even more, Jesus will show you how to overcome the pain, and in this, know a love, peace and closeness to Him that is beyond words.
Truelly the peace that surpasses all understanding.
Momoffour, I know your pain, but understand please, I also know that Jesus will do amazing things in your life if you let Him.
Please, give the life God has given you the chance for a great love lived.
And your children, the life of love that they should have with you.

Talk to me if you need.

Hugs and God bless
pickles

Mumoffour, Jesus is here with you, He loves you so much.
How are you doing now?

Hugs and God bless
pickles

Mumoffour, I know I was hard on you, but I know also that pain makes it hard to hear or see what matters.
I had to push past and through your pain, so you would hear.
Will you talk to me?
Jesus is with you right now, let Him help you.

Hugs and God bless
pickles

mumoffour, you can always take your life another day.
But today, save your life, let Jesus save your life.
Open the door to Jesus, let Him show you His love, His never ending and perfect love.
It is real, and so worth it!
Tha amazing part is, He carried and knows your pain, Jesuscarried your pain on the cross for you, He overcame your pain on the cross for you.
Jesus gave you His victory over pain, He already has given it to you, let Jesus show you how to live it.
I wish I had the erfect words to show and tell you how great Jesus's love is for you.
I know only, that He does love you, my heart weeps with you because of His love for you.
Open your heart to His healing and great love, recieve it.
He is holding you right now, asking only, have faith .

Hugs and God bless
pickles

Hugs and God bless
pickles

I am in gods Hans now what will be will be if he wants me to live he will intervene I know that's not good either giving an ultimatum because we have free will hope you can understand me I'm getting very slow sorry

Momoffour, I know in faith that God already has.
Look at how many have answered you, how many trully care.
But as you said, we do have free will, and one can decide to respond to what God is doing for them, or not.
But I also believe in faith, in Jesus Christ is Lord come in the flesh, that God is intervening now for you.
So much so that I am trusting you to Jesus, as I have to sign off now.
I know in faith, in Jesus Christ is Lord come in the flesh, that you will be saved.
Im sure also others will look in on you here.
I expect to see you again here, I look forward to it.
Being a mom of five, I know how amazing life is with raising children and enjoy sharing their joys with others.

Know Jesus loves you, but also, you need to love yourself too, Jesus wants you to.
Ill keep praying for you in Jesus Christ is Lord come in the flesh.

I will see you later.
Hugs and God bless
pickles

I have someone here that I'm going to get to take the kids so and leave me here

Ill be praying for you in Jesus.
Also, Ill be praying for your children.
Remember, Jesus loves you, He is giving you His hand of help.

Hugs and God bless
pickles

I sent you a PM/Email.

John 14:27: "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid"

I'm here if you want to talk. My private email is: [email protected]

Call out to Jesus!!

Mumoffour, I did this i overdosed back at 18 years of age and was AWOL from the USMC at the time my life was in ruins and still is today at 56 years of age, many tagedies. But after downing 26 pills that should have killed me ans ne asking god to forgive me as I took them say I can't take this and I couldn't as I see you can't either. I do not know God's plan for your children, I do not know what you are in bondage to, but there is a way of escape and there is help as you areand have reached out here. Noiw I did not die at that and lived. Not in regret and not in thank you that I lived, but in wonderment in awe why?
Well Sister there are and ahve been many times to this day That I should ahve been dead lates at 55 put in emergency for ganggreen in my personal area, yes amputated and still live.
My point is Sister the Devil came to steal, kill and destroy and the only way the this strategy is made possible to anyone of us is through one thought process. Tell me if you did not have thoughts of suicide would you be comtemplating them?
You see Sister no one no not one can change thier feelings and the harder we try to the worse it gets which is where you are right now and where I was.
I had to change my thoughts to change my feelings and in order fopr you to change your feelings, you would have to change your thoughts
Are you ready to meet your maker? And if you do commit the act what if it doen't happen and you live maybe as a vegetable, maybe something else that is not good? I can not predict Future and neither can anyone else?
I am telling you God does just love you no matter what has happened, people don't not really, but God does even when it does not seem like it. There is always something good to come from all that is bad
You are free and in light of this freedom is it really beneficial for yuo to commit suicide? private e-mail me if you wish

How are you mumoffour? I pray you are well. I'm still praying for you as well as many others!

I am Mary's son I am on her phone I think you know her as mumoffour I have read all the posts I don't know where my mum is she left her phone home and it hasn't got much battery life left but I just want to thank everyone for your prayers and the help that you have sent my mum she is a very good mum and we love her but our dad did awful things and mum has tried so hard in this last 7 years on her own with us it hasn't been easy for her please just keep us in your prayers that we find her ok

Mary's son I haven't stopped thinking about her since contact with her yesterday. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you.

Thank you we still haven't found her

Continueing to pray for all of you in Jesus Christ is Lord.

God bless
pickles