A faithful beleiver (a muslim) that needs help. To the almighty GOD, I seek refuge.

I am going through a terrible seperation. I am currently in the middle of trying to purchase a home on my own to create a future for our daughter all while dealing with my ex husbands extreme behavior. I am heart broken and moving on. My ex has been pulling me towards the negativity. He is filled with hatred and wants to hurt me. I know he has the urge to take out all his anger with the world on me through his actions. My ex husband has used our daughter to make my life uneasy. He has made me feel unsafe with the reality that I am living in. Through out the tenure of our marraige my husband has been unfaithful, I accepted this and decided I needed to forgive and try to work with him, a short while ago I have stopped being a wife. I have tried to talk to him and cant seem to get through. Sometimes I i dont want to cope. I find myself isolating myself every now and than OR complete opposite in keeping ultra busy where I am exhausted. I just want to be free of the hurt. I am ready to move on. I want my husband to let go and move on. I need him to stop and be at peace. I wish for him to finally relax and stop hurting us.

GOD. Please accept my good deeds and forgive me for my sins I do not intentionally want to do wrong but I am seeing that I am going in the wrong direction. I have not been patient enough with this establishment you have gifted me with. I have had everything I dreamed for. a simple life and a family of my own to care for. My husband has inner deamons that he is not dealing well with. He has cheated on me and has embarrassed me in front of my family I went through all the greiving for a year now and I am ready to move on. I fear that my husband is not ready. My husband has been lashing out on me and my family liquifying his hatred on us. I have not bad mouthed him, GOD. I have supported him and his ways for years. I do not beleive in divroce but my husband asks for it. I have accepted the fate of our marraige so that we may finally move on happily be at peace. HE says he wants a divorce but shows he is still angry with me. I ask him why? why are you so angry he has no rational reason... Please GOD help grant him (my ex) the faith in you and give him peace. I pray that you support him in this journey and produce good energy in his direction. His negativity is ragging and hurtful. his rage effects me and my daughters well being. I pray for more patience and I pray for more strength. I have a lot on my plate but I know you always give me what I can handle. I pray to you GOD for help. and I am thankful for everything you have given me. I am grateful for every breath and a new day to start over, GOD you kow when I am ready but I pray for the day that I am free.

sarasier, i will keep you in prayers...
but i was wondering...are you a Muslim? or a Christian? @_@

Sarasier, you have to realize this, Life isn't going to get better because your ex is no longer bothering you... Some other pain will fill his place, I hate to say this but there is only one way out of pain... And that is God, to put all your love and trust and devotion in God... I know it sounds radical but you should love Christ more than you love your child or yourself...

And if you are not Christian, you have come to the right place because there are many here who can explain the Glory of God! That through His grace He sent his Son to take the wrath of God so we might be able to enjoy the presence of God and share as brothers and sisters with Christ..

Thank you for your kind words. I am a devoted believer in our GOD and I was born and raised muslim. Jesus Christ is humanities savior and a gift to us from GOD himself. I believe in all GOD's prophets that have been set on this earth with the word of GOD. I appreciate the posts I have been given and the encouragement you bestowed on me today. I felt like I had to just project what was inside of me for so long and being able to do so with GOD loving people is truly a blessing. I just want peace and I pray that I will wake up from this misery and I know there is peace all around us I just need to shut out the demons. Thank you very much.

Thank you for your kind loving words.

Setting you and your daughter before God in Jesus Christ is Lord.

Hugs hugs and God bless
pickles