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T_Laurich

T_Laurich

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I am lost in my mind, stuck in paradox's that seem so comforting on the surface. I get lost in questions that will never be answered and talk too voices that will never exist. I am having a mental breakdown and my world is only becoming more stressful. I don't know were to turn but to God, yet I told myself I won't use God as a crutch to carry myself through a battlefield, but more so a Strength to fight off the evils. My world is becoming increasingly frightening. I am hallucinating and seeing things others don't see. I am talking to voices that no one hears. Yet, they seem so real. They almost out weigh the whole world in their depth of reality. The more I try to forget the stronger they become the less I try to think the more they burrow into the depths of my sanity. Psychologist's are hard to come by were I live, and I have to wait nearly 3 weeks before I see one.

This is the scariest thing I have ever known in my life. To be torn between two realities. One were you don't want to be yet feels so good, and the other that you had all your dreams and aspirations in. Were your friends reside and your family dwells, seems so distant, alien, frightening. The grey is becoming a fog. Its becoming so hard to distinguish the two at times. So I am turning to God And I would love your help, your thoughts or prayers would be a God-send to me please...

My life is turning into a nightmare, no matter how hard I try to escape I can't escape my mind. I am becoming my own kryptonite if you will....

I don't know how I will get through these weeks but all I can do is try.....
 
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Hello, I reccomend listening to an audio King James Bible, it will calm you and youll hear the word of GOD. You need 20 cc s of Bible ( King James ) and also now is the time to get rid of any occult or catholic paraphenalia, out of your home. Also start drinking ice water ( cold H2O with ice cubes ) thats just my own advice though on sticking only to ice water. Audio KJV playing in home will calm you down right quick.
 
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I hear from many 18 year olds in similar situations. I have been talking to one for quite sometime who met Jesus when Jesus interrupted a conversation between him and his dead grandfather. I think he is well on his way to becoming a professional Christian author just a year later.

God makes a good crutch. It's not wrong to let Him be this. Also, He is probably one of the voices. At your age, it's normal to try to make sense out of your rapidly expanding life-experience. Your brain has several adult areas that were not functioning a year ago, and they are starting to announce themselves. This is part of the reason for the voices. It's also why there seem to be two realities. I assure you there are many mansions in heaven, and thus many realities reflecting them on earth. Ask Jesus to talk to you, and then start asking about who you are, and His plan for your life.
 
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Have no fear beloved, you are perfect in Christ, call upon him as he is your defender in all things.
Fear not as your are so very much loved that only God can discribe his love for you. you are not going crazy. when these thoughts come read the bible out load with your voice so all can hear, this can some times be hard and for good reason they that fight against you have to obey these words you speak the more you do this the more peace shall reast upon you. never forget the price that was paid for this power by CHRIST our savouir.
God Bless you in all his power and might
 
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Hugs T_Laurich, I have a daughter who has battled the same, and still from tme to time.
Do not think of God as a crutch, see God as your whole life and all needed to live.
Jesus said, I am the way, the truth and the life, Jesus also said that when you believe in me, I place a part of my spirit in you, for when you have faith in me, you die with me and are born to eternal life in me.
You see, you now live in Jesus, your flesh is mearly the temple that holds the life you have been reborn into. :)
So yes! let Jesus carry you, trust all you are to God Our Father, for He gives you His life and all needed to overcome!
Jesus said, in the world you have tribulation, but take courage, I have overcome the world!
This is the peace that in Jesus, is already yours, Jesus is faithful to you, to His word. :)
Im setting you before God in Jesus's name with praise and thanksgiving, for all that is God's love and care, and all that is Jesus's life alive in you.
I know some days can be difficult, but always hold fast to Jesus, it is what He desires you to do. :)
Praying also for you in Jesus for all that is the joy of salvation!

Huge hugs and God bless
pickles
 
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Definitely praying for you
 
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THE FEAR IS CAUSING THIS. THE DEVIL IS USING THIS. REBUKE IT IN JESUS NAME. LUKE 10:19 FOR GOD HAS NOT GIVEN US A SPIRIT OF FEAR BUT OF PEACE, ORDER AND A SOUND MIND." MAY THE BLOOD OF JESUS BE APPLYED TO YOUR THOUGHTS.
 

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Dont fear friend. Pray for his peace and warmth, i am sure he is there waiting to hear from you! We will pray for your peace and stability!God Bless!!
 
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T_Laurich said:
I am lost in my mind, stuck in paradox's that seem so comforting on the surface. I get lost in questions that will never be answered and talk too voices that will never exist. I am having a mental breakdown and my world is only becoming more stressful. I don't know were to turn but to God, yet I told myself I won't use God as a crutch to carry myself through a battlefield, but more so a Strength to fight off the evils. My world is becoming increasingly frightening. I am hallucinating and seeing things others don't see. I am talking to voices that no one hears. Yet, they seem so real. They almost out weigh the whole world in their depth of reality. The more I try to forget the stronger they become the less I try to think the more they burrow into the depths of my sanity. Psychologist's are hard to come by were I live, and I have to wait nearly 3 weeks before I see one.

This is the scariest thing I have ever known in my life. To be torn between two realities. One were you don't want to be yet feels so good, and the other that you had all your dreams and aspirations in. Were your friends reside and your family dwells, seems so distant, alien, frightening. The grey is becoming a fog. Its becoming so hard to distinguish the two at times. So I am turning to God And I would love your help, your thoughts or prayers would be a God-send to me please...

My life is turning into a nightmare, no matter how hard I try to escape I can't escape my mind. I am becoming my own kryptonite if you will....

I don't know how I will get through these weeks but all I can do is try.....
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I am praying for you...this is a difficult and I am sure terrifying situation for you but I am reassured that you do recognise you need to get help? more than can be provided here? Of course you will pray, as others here will do for you too but also, have you told parents? someone close you can share? other family friends and family? what you are experiencing? I think it is important, for your safety. It may take a while on the waiting list to see a psychologist, but you can go to your A & E department if you cannot cope anymore. Are you sleeping? eating? but what about your doctor? have you told him / her how things have deteriorated? I would encourage you to decide who to tell this too. this is very hard for you to try and get through on your own, nor does God expect you too...when we are ill, we need to be supported and encouraged. God Bless you, <><
 
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I'm not sure if you are being literal or poetic, but if you are hearing voices that aren't real or seeing things that other people don't see, go to the emergency room ASAP. You are at a pretty typical age of onset for some neurological problems that could create those symptoms. If you are taking St. John's Wort, stop taking it now. If you are being serious, please seek medical care. Praying for you.
 
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I've found writing helps. Keeping a journal of what your are seeing and experiencing and praying and reading back what you wrote. Determining what is reality and what is just in your mind: dreams, visions, hallucinations.

Don't be afraid to pray for God to CARRY you through the battlefield. not just be a crush or a weapon, but YOUR SAVIOR.

I'm not going to write much because you don't need more voices in your head. Just a prayer, a scripture and a song....

Dear God we lift up this young man to you and ask that You speak Your Truth into his life and help him discern between the Truth and the Lies. Give him peace as only You can and surround him with your SILENT angels and protect him. In Jesus name we pray. Amen

Psalm 91

New King James Version (NKJV)

Safety of Abiding in the Presence of God

91 He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
[SUP]2 [/SUP]I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust.”

[SUP]3 [/SUP]Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler[SUP][a][/SUP]
And from the perilous pestilence.
[SUP]4 [/SUP]He shall cover you with His feathers,
And under His wings you shall take refuge;
His truth shall be your shield and buckler.
[SUP]5 [/SUP]You shall not be afraid of the terror by night,
Nor of the arrow that flies by day,
[SUP]6 [/SUP]Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,
Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.

[SUP]7 [/SUP]A thousand may fall at your side,
And ten thousand at your right hand;
But it shall not come near you.
[SUP]8 [/SUP]Only with your eyes shall you look,
And see the reward of the wicked.

[SUP]9 [/SUP]Because you have made the Lord, who is my refuge,
Even the Most High, your dwelling place,
[SUP]10 [/SUP]No evil shall befall you,
Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
[SUP]11 [/SUP]For He shall give His angels charge over you,
To keep you in all your ways.
[SUP]12 [/SUP]In their hands they shall bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
[SUP]13 [/SUP]You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra,
The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot.

[SUP]14 [/SUP]“Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him;
I will set him on high, because he has known My name.
[SUP]15 [/SUP]He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him and honor him.
[SUP]16 [/SUP]With long life I will satisfy him,
And show him My salvation.”
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<span class="text Ps-91-16">[video=youtube;KwsvqVmFV6Y]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KwsvqVmFV6Y[/video]
 
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How are you doing?
You remain in my prayers in Jesus.

God bless:)
pickles
 
T_Laurich

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Doing better... But Just the thought of going into these moods makes me feel beyond frightened... It seems the fear of these attacks causes the attacks... And the more I forget the more I remind myself what happened, Idk...

But... Thanks for the prayers, everyone and anyone who prayed.

Idk why I must type this since we all know but... God is great!

Thanks again everyone... Honestly your reply's helped and I am seeing a Doctor about this, and he recommended a psychiatrist. I am scheduled for a series of test's and what not to make sure nothing organ wise is going wrong...
 
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Im glad you have seen a dr. and are taking the good steps needed for this. :)
When I was about 17, all the past abuse and injuries finnally caught up with me.
I felt like I was being beaten up from the inside out, and at times I didnt know wether where I was was the real, or the world I had imagined.
It was very scarey.
Thankfully some one saw my need, and directed me to the help needed.
It was the best thing, second only to Jesus, that had ever happened to me.
The healing in Jesus, the help , and the tools given brought me peace , and opened my life to joy again. :)
It took some time, and there were moments where I wanted to run, but with Jesus and the psy. I soon found the recovery and understanding needed.
Ill be praying for you, and pm me if you need. :)
I just want you to know you do not walk alone in this, for I and many here do care and do know the struggle you are going through.
You will overcome this and find the healing, understanding and peace you seek.
Jesus is always with you, and He will make sure of it. :)

God bless
pickles
 
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I have not been here in a few weeks...
I want you to know I sent a prayer for you!
And you are right God is not our crutch...
He is the rock on wich we stand on!!!
So go boldly to the throne of grace!!!

Hebrews 4:16
Let us then approach God's throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

God bless you and keep you!
Prayers and blessings, Shekaniah
 
T_Laurich

T_Laurich

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How can a human feel such pain and God consider it nothing compared to what he has endured...

For if you prick a child's finger it will cry and if you prick an adults it will do nothing. To the child the pain is mind boggling and has surpassed all the pain it has ever felt in the world... But to the adult it is 'nothing'. Does it matter that the adult thinks it is nothing... The child is in fear of death....
 
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Please hang on brother, when we think this way we open doors. Instead think and know that it shall pass. Sometimes our pain generates a feeling of fear because how it can make us feel; causing both to feed of each other, but one thing that always helps is that God makes all things new!!! :)

Sometimes he wants us to experience things to fulfill his will, and it is awesome that he loves us that much. And my dear brother, God will never give you more than you can handle.

You are never alone, for we are here with you :)
 
T_Laurich

T_Laurich

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Duckies said:
Please hang on brother, when we think this way we open doors. Instead think and know that it shall pass. Sometimes our pain generates a feeling of fear because how it can make us feel; causing both to feed of each other, but one thing that always helps is that God makes all things new!!! :)

Sometimes he wants us to experience things to fulfill his will, and it is awesome that he loves us that much. And my dear brother, God will never give you more than you can handle.

You are never alone, for we are here with you :)
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I know... Thank you... God is great!

But, it feels like he is breaking me like he would break a wild stallion.... Or how the military would break a new recruit....
 
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When the creator works in us, it can hurt, but the reward is more than we can fathom. Random, but something made me pick up the tablet and check the forum again before heading to bed, this is good :)
So Find Peace My Brother for the one that watches over you is King and all kneel before him at the sound of his name.

God Bless You!!
 
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T_Laurich said:
How can a human feel such pain and God consider it nothing compared to what he has endured...

For if you prick a child's finger it will cry and if you prick an adults it will do nothing. To the child the pain is mind boggling and has surpassed all the pain it has ever felt in the world... But to the adult it is 'nothing'. Does it matter that the adult thinks it is nothing... The child is in fear of death....
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There were lots of pricks just in the crown of thorns. And to the extent that Jesus could fear death, He feared it. He was there where you are, voluntarily, He felt it, He knows, and He learned obedience through what He suffered.
 
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