Okay. I am not really sure how to start this off so I will just tell you my story. My whole life i felt something missing inside of me, ever since i was a little kid and found out the truth about my father who was and is a drug addict my whole life turned around i lost my happiness at a very young age. For a while I was okay and being as strong as I Can for the rest of my family and was acting out a role of happiness to please my mom. When i began highschool, I followed in my older brothers footsteps who is a year older than me, and i started to smoke weed everyday for the past 4 years, at first it gave me the sense of belonging and acceptance i was looking for and helped me let go. I then realized these new "friends" i had only liked me because i smoked weed, and did not feel worthy of anything and got extremely depressed, and stopped doing things i liked to do, like play baseball which i was good at, and wasted the talent god gave me. I stopped doing an ything basicallly but smoke. After highshool it was more of the same i didnt go to college and continued doing nothing intill january of this year i gruaduated in 2012. In the new year I quit smoking and got a job which i thought would make me happy, which it didnt, then i fiqured, well im just not making enough money i need another job, o now i got a job bridgepainting and i make more money than any 19 kids i know and have money to do what I want now and buy what i want, but there is still something missing inside of me, and i turn to lust desire and greed to fill those needs and i just think that Jesus is the only way to fill that missing void in my life permantly. I ask of you jesus to come into my heart and save i give my life to you. If you can please pray ask jesus to save me and make me whole again and keep me with him that would be awesome of you. If you made it this far thank you so much you have no idea what it means to me. Thank you so much