Dad thinks he’s not a Christian anymore (immediate prayer request)

Thank you so much miss blie

Just woke up trying to get back to sleep...

Daddy accepted Jesus in his heart again, I can only earnestly hope he and God can patch up that faith hole

I’m just trying to pray that God heals his heart because he is just in sad emotional shape right now...pacing, crying, thinking the same things over and over. Just like I used to do.

Even after this morning he says he’s still not settled about the whole situation. What his salvation is. I feel like emotionally I cannot y’all to him I’m just so tired. But I’m still praying. Sadly it’s a lot easier to pray than have to deal with that person.

I wish I knew what to say.. But daddy IS saved, no amount of temporary wavering faith can change that. God is bigger than this cancer, bigger than daddy's fear and doubt. And when this is all over, he WILL be a stronger Christian for it.

I flip flopped between emotions too. What if they find more than they think is there? What if they find they can't operate? What if it comes back? What if I lose faith entirely because God allowed this to happen to ME, a non smoker, instead of my sister who smokes like a chimney? Why is this happening to me when I have enough **** to deal with already? Who will take care of Tequila if I die?

To put things bluntly, daddy needs to develop a kick-ascot attitude right now. LOL... Cancer will not beat him, the devil cannot defeat him no matter what. God is on his side, and he will be fine.

Then don't deal with him. Let him rant and rave if that's what he wants to do.. But I would tell him that with every doubt he voices, it only gives more strength to the devil...


Show him this:

If you have a printer, print them out and put them around the house..

All day dad paced around the house, grabbing things every so often and kinda shaking them, constantly trying to say something but continually cutting himself off. He’s praying now and I’m not sure what will happen but I’m gonna trust God He leads daddy around the right start.

It’s like right now I’m so emotionally tired I only know to trust him in God’s hands because I have no idea what else to do.

Somehow now seems less....tense somehow??

He let me pray in tongues over him

I have pills that make me feel better I just...

So there’s a possibility that dads got an infection happening, his feet are swelling and I think so is his stomach. We need to get him to ER but I don’t know if he’s willing.

Dad has this thing about consequences right now, and he’s so freaked out that... I think he thinks that it’d be better if it wasn’t he wasn’t around....part of him wants to change, and he’s just so suffocated in guilt.

He said he’s done a couple things that were like considering suicide. Like putting a bag over his head and breathing wondering if that would work, to choke on his phlegm.

Ummmm... Well, for one, that won't get him anywhere. And it's rather selfish (albeit entirely understandable) to even want to do that, when this trial IS temporary.. I'm just wondering if he still trusts God, and that He knows what He's doing? Daddy needs to stop giving the devil power over him during this time. It's when we're at our weakest, that he attacks us..

Daddy has nothing to feel guilty about. He didn't cause this cancer. Neither did God, but that's beside the point.. But there WILL be consequences if he keeps thinking that way. The devil will keep sinking him lower and lower. Tell daddy to develop that kick *ss attitude.. lol

Whether he's willing or not, get him to the ER... Tell him to stop hindering God's progress in him, and to stop giving satan ammunition..

It's so hard to know what is going on but not being able to do anything to help, I feel so useless. This situation is is one only God can fix but even so I just wish there was more I could than just pray. Sweetie in all honesty I don't know what to say to help the situation and there may not be anything I can say to help but please try to not let the situation overwhelm you distract yourself however you can, I know it can be emotionally draining and I also know how easy it is to sit here and say all of this compared to having to actually go through it but even so I want you to know that you are my precious treasure and your family is just as precious to me and believe me if God would allow it I would take his cancer upon myself without a second thought just so that you guys could finally have a normal happy life again