J
I have a real problem with naturally expressing emotion. I learned long ago that I couldn't feel, so I repressed all negative emotion and gave myself to a miserable life because I knew it wouldn't ever get better. I never knew I was feeling anything negative then. What does that mean today? It means I get hurt very easily but stuff it away most of the time before I even have a chance at feeling it. I find myself "rationalizing" hurtful things by telling myself Im just being too sensitive. Is that really rationalization? I am overly sensitive. I don't know how to express negative emotion. I fear abandonment if I tell someone they hurt me. Or worse yet, I fear the humiliation of someone telling me its really my fault for being too sensitive.
Jesus, help!
Jesus, help!