Hey all, I'm in bind that I'm just not getting any peace about. I have spent the last two years in school, also looking for some kind of work - but unable to find anyone that would schedule me around my school hours - until this past month. I finished a two year degree in IT, and the first application I put in got me an interview, a second interview and a job offer.
Now, in the background, because of my availability during normal working hours, I've been taking care of my grandmother, who has dementia/alzheimer's, which is spiraling downward more and more each month. I am with her until my uncle comes home from work, and/or until he is able to return home from various appointments, etc. I am being paid a small amount weekly to spend my days caring for her, but it's just not enough to survive on.
You can imagine how difficult it was for me to want a "real" full time job to take advantage of my degree, but also to remain faithful to my family. To get a successful job offer after so long was amazing to me. But....
1. I would have to work every Sunday - retail + Sunday Ads = No Sundays Off.
2. Low pay - even for the Tech position I am to fill, it's extremely sub-par pay.
3. There's nobody else, literally, to take care of my grandmother, and she cannot be left alone for more than a couple hours....if that.
So, I went in today expecting to sign paperwork and get things rolling with the job, but I ended up in a room with a video player and watching training videos. This set my panic button off - I wasn't ready to make that decision yet, and i only thought I'd be signing paperwork and be off to my uncle's to watch grandma, this was going to take hours - and this just made it too much. All I could think of was the current time, and if my grandmother was awake, and if she was ok.
Then I got to thinking about my church services. I won't be able to go if I take this job. Not even to evening services, and I'm just trying to get back to church faithfully after running away from Him for a while.
I didn't know what else to do, but I knew what my sense of obligation and duty wanted me to do, and that was to go to the manager that was trying to "train" me and tell him face to face that I must decline the job offer (at least until they decide to appease me and print their weekly Ad on Tuesdays...)
I really just need prayer support and encouragement. We're trying to find a place for my grandmother to live, but I have this nagging sense of responsibility to not just toss her away in a home.
Now, in the background, because of my availability during normal working hours, I've been taking care of my grandmother, who has dementia/alzheimer's, which is spiraling downward more and more each month. I am with her until my uncle comes home from work, and/or until he is able to return home from various appointments, etc. I am being paid a small amount weekly to spend my days caring for her, but it's just not enough to survive on.
You can imagine how difficult it was for me to want a "real" full time job to take advantage of my degree, but also to remain faithful to my family. To get a successful job offer after so long was amazing to me. But....
1. I would have to work every Sunday - retail + Sunday Ads = No Sundays Off.
2. Low pay - even for the Tech position I am to fill, it's extremely sub-par pay.
3. There's nobody else, literally, to take care of my grandmother, and she cannot be left alone for more than a couple hours....if that.
So, I went in today expecting to sign paperwork and get things rolling with the job, but I ended up in a room with a video player and watching training videos. This set my panic button off - I wasn't ready to make that decision yet, and i only thought I'd be signing paperwork and be off to my uncle's to watch grandma, this was going to take hours - and this just made it too much. All I could think of was the current time, and if my grandmother was awake, and if she was ok.
Then I got to thinking about my church services. I won't be able to go if I take this job. Not even to evening services, and I'm just trying to get back to church faithfully after running away from Him for a while.
I didn't know what else to do, but I knew what my sense of obligation and duty wanted me to do, and that was to go to the manager that was trying to "train" me and tell him face to face that I must decline the job offer (at least until they decide to appease me and print their weekly Ad on Tuesdays...)
I really just need prayer support and encouragement. We're trying to find a place for my grandmother to live, but I have this nagging sense of responsibility to not just toss her away in a home.
