he is gone and i feel so alone.

I had been with my husband for 28 and a half years, married 24 of them, My daughter and I caught him in another womens bed in his underwear passed out her in the bathroom in her underwear. If we had not found them im sure he would not of come home that night as he had had overnighters where he would tell me he stayed at a friends at least 1 or 2 nights a month. I asked him to leave when he came in that night after we saw them together. I feel so betrayed I had been seeking prayers, and researching how to save a marrige in mid life crisis, he had told me 3 days before we found them that i was his life no one in the world met as much to him as i did and that he could not ask for a better wife. I am so confussed, I only have god to turn to for hope and as i keep praying nothing gets better. Hcame home tuesday looking for me i had gone grocery shopping so he stoped again on wednday got his food dehidrator and i went out on my deck, he came out put his arm around y back and asked why i came out I said i did not want to watch him get his things, he said you dont want me arond, when i said why would i he removed his arm from my back and was shaking he turned to walk away, i said you dont even want to explain yoursellf, he said there is nothing to explain, and left he only comes for a few minutes and leaves, He keeps telling me he did not have sex with her he feels like he did nothing wrong, i dont even know if he remembers they were bolth out of it. I feel she my have put something in his drink, but i may be trying to make myself feel etter. He did bring us some money last week, than left, he never says he is sorry so i can get closier. I feel so bad fr my daughter as she graduates this year and now i can not afford to give her a party, i was giving her money from out taxes and now he wants half. I am taking care of cooking for my mom as she had just had a stroke 1 week before this all happened, I am not sure how much more i can handle why am i being tested so strongly? please help me keep my faith.

Why don't we start with what love really is. This doesn't address every issue you and your husband are going through right now, but it's a start, and it brought me a lot of insight in regards to marriage and my OWN personal relationships.

The reason why I'm showing you this video is because it brought me comfort, perhaps it'll bring you some comfort as well.


[video=youtube;4XkZq4KuoCI]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4XkZq4KuoCI[/video]



I'm praying for you right now~ so please don't feel alone! He is with you, and so am I. Know that God has everything under control, he has you in the palm of his hand.



Lots of love and hugs are being sent your way~

Hugs doe, my heart aches with you and for you.
I know only that there will be sorrow in our lives, sometimes one struggle as well on what the right thing to do is.
I just want you to look to Jesus, let Him be your comfort, hope and victory.
Jesus said, inthe world you will have tribulation, but take courage, I have overcome the world!
Jesus said this so you would know, that He wants you to come to Him, so that He may set His victory in you.
His victory is not ablways about making things perfect, but in Him, knowing and recieivng all needed to live, love and rejoice.
Even when one's world is falling apart around one.
I witness to this , simply because Jesus showed me this when my world fell apart, and in Jesus, I came to know His victory.
And most important, His perfect love that trully will sustain you and streangthen you as you walk this difficult path.
For in the world are many terrible things, and we often just want to cover our eyes and hide from these things.
But Jesus gently removes our hands from our eyes, so we may know and see, that His victory and love are stronger than anything the world will bring.
Thus, by this we will see the love and glory of God before us.
All is trully your glory Lord God!!!

You, your daughter and your husband continue in my daily prayers in Jesus.

Hugs and God bless
pickles