Jesus has you in his hand already-(so to speak).
Your problems are his problems.
Your needs have become his.
It sounds like there are anxiety issues, God doesn't want you hurried or harassed; but we go through things, God tests us not too prove our love, but to show His love through us.
I will pray for you, I already am, but the apostle Paul said when he was weakest, the power of God was strongest on him.
My advice is to use this time when you are beset with trials to rest in the love of God.
Don't worry, .......don't worry. Nothing can take you out of his hand.
Rest in His Grace.......I say FORCE yourself to rest in his grace. - Because you already are in his grace.
Encourage yourself in Jesus' love, and by so doing in your weakened state you will help others.
Just by being there, in your weakened condition the extra Spirit on you, helping you, will rub off on them.
It's personal, his love for you is everlasting and its personal, and no one can take you out of His hand.
-NOBODY! No circumstance, no sickness, no disease, no man, no job, no lack, no failing of your fleshly nature, no fallen angel......Nothing and nobody and no spirit can separate you from the love of God in Jesus Christ. NOBODY! ------- Do you honestly thing you'd be the only one he'd let go? - Out of all the millions and millions that put their trust in him, that you would be the only one? Jesus is zealous over you! He's not going to let you go! No matter what you have to go through he's not going to lose you! It's just not going to happen. So what is so important that steals your peace? Grow in your faith through these times, - I'll say again what the apostle Paul said, "yea, I will glory in mine affliction because when I am weak, the Spirit abides on me". And especially when your alone your prayers are very powerful.
- "Jesus, please help her to grow into what you have planned for her in this, her time of need. Thank you for the power that resides on her weakened state. Use it to move the mountains you need to be moved, in Jesus Name....." I'm not going to say amen because He's not done. Watch what he does in your weakened condition. Just watch! - Stand and Behold the Glory of The LORD!