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The thing is, God sent me to Germany by a revelation that i've asked.
And the thing is, this is a prison, I'm living in a "sin", I don't know the language, this is a "desert", I'm in a jail, and the prison bars are trees and mounts...
I don't know God's plan here..
but I went to a church, randomly and it was in the screen :
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9
And I was like, wow, maybe God wants me to be here, and I've found a job in Mcdonalds aswell, and I'm good, but, I'm getting my hands totally burned, my right eye got burnt!
I'm living in a "Sin" because i'm sharing a house with a girl, and yeah... and it's being a hell lately, because she's always mad at me, blablabla, screaming a lot, for no reason at all, I do clean my stuff and etc... but in my time, for example instead of doing that at 3 pm I do it at 5 pm listening to music, with no stress, and she's stressing my life ,a lot.
And at my friends/family's eyes, I am "Somebody" like "wow, he went to germany, he's a man now, he's good in life... but, in my eyes I am nobody, I have nothing here, I have not my car, not my parents, not my friends, I'm a Ghost in the town, nobody knows me...
And I pray everynight "Oh my God, make me dream again, make me come to my home, and fly .", and yes, I spend like every hour "dreaming" that I'm home.
If I come back to Portugal, I will have a poor and simple life as a shellfish worker, but I will only be able to work 4 hours per day, and decide to have a free day, sooo, I will have plenty of time for God and etc..
Here, I don't know, God's plan for me here, but certainly a good life with a good car and house, but I don't know what to do to my LIFE, please pray and send me what appears in your heart in PRIVATE MESSAGE, please <3!
Please please please, don't ignore this. I'm so confused..
And the thing is, this is a prison, I'm living in a "sin", I don't know the language, this is a "desert", I'm in a jail, and the prison bars are trees and mounts...
I don't know God's plan here..
but I went to a church, randomly and it was in the screen :
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9
And I was like, wow, maybe God wants me to be here, and I've found a job in Mcdonalds aswell, and I'm good, but, I'm getting my hands totally burned, my right eye got burnt!
I'm living in a "Sin" because i'm sharing a house with a girl, and yeah... and it's being a hell lately, because she's always mad at me, blablabla, screaming a lot, for no reason at all, I do clean my stuff and etc... but in my time, for example instead of doing that at 3 pm I do it at 5 pm listening to music, with no stress, and she's stressing my life ,a lot.
And at my friends/family's eyes, I am "Somebody" like "wow, he went to germany, he's a man now, he's good in life... but, in my eyes I am nobody, I have nothing here, I have not my car, not my parents, not my friends, I'm a Ghost in the town, nobody knows me...
And I pray everynight "Oh my God, make me dream again, make me come to my home, and fly .", and yes, I spend like every hour "dreaming" that I'm home.
If I come back to Portugal, I will have a poor and simple life as a shellfish worker, but I will only be able to work 4 hours per day, and decide to have a free day, sooo, I will have plenty of time for God and etc..
Here, I don't know, God's plan for me here, but certainly a good life with a good car and house, but I don't know what to do to my LIFE, please pray and send me what appears in your heart in PRIVATE MESSAGE, please <3!
Please please please, don't ignore this.
I'm so confused..
