I tried to commit suicide but god saved me. Please pray for me

Well first I'd just like to tell you a little bit about my story.

On March 7th my daughter was taken from me over a scratch to her genital area caused by our dog. I know that this is what caused the injury because I witnessed it myself. My daughter is 2 and potty training. When I took my daughter to the doctor to be checked out they called social services. Social services claimed that it was from sexual abuse which I know is not true, I saw the injury myself. My husband is a Marine and when his command caught word of what happened they through him in military jail illegally and the civilian detective had to get him out.

Now to my point, earlier in the day my husband and I had gotten into a big arguement. Ive been with my husband since i was 14 and Im now 24, our relationship has been through so much but it has gotten to the point that I feel it is abusive and unhealthy.

On March 11th I prayed with the pastors wife at my sisters church and asked to rededicate my life to God. But my heart was still aching and I had fallen to such a dark place that I attempted suicide. I took over 100 powerful sedatives but God allowed me to live. I spent several days in the ICU and 9 days in a psychiatric hospital. My world had been ripped from under me, my beautiful daughter and my husband taken in a blink of an eye. I remember waking up and feel blessed that I had survived, feeling as though God has given me a second chance.

Now a month later and a month to our first court date over my child I am wondering where I stand with my husband. I have been clinging to God and learning how to change, but my husband shows little interest in his actions. He says he wants to change but his actions show me differemt.

This is a defining point in my life. I have found God and know I must lean on him, but I feel that my relationship with my husband will drive a wedge between christ and I. My husband and I have been abusive to each other and I no longer wish to live that way.What happens if my husband doesnt choose to follow God, if he wants to continue the old lifestyle? I know without God in our life our marriage is doomed. I just needed someone to hear my story, other christians, to offer me some advice. I feel empty.

keep your focus on Christ. He doesnt give us more than we can handle i'm very sry about your situation, i know that God is control even in the darkness HE is still in control i will be praying for you as for your decision i can not give an answer, but God will

I'm really sorry for all you've been through, Bettie! I know the mind trauma from it all has to be very tough. The good news is, is that God can work everything out for you! =) It doesn't matter how tough the situation is. Just keep following and trusting in God and always put him first every day in your life. Things will turn around. Don't let your husband or anyone else get between you and God. I don't know all the details of everything, but I do know that whatever happens, when you are putting God first, everything will be okay and work out in the end. Although it may be hard, don't focus on what may seem like impossible situations (like your husband and/or daughter leaving or your husband not accepting God), but rather start thinking about how big God is and keep praying and seeking him. Life is crazy sometimes and things don't always go as we plan them and sometimes stuff happens where it just feels like you are in a hole and can't get out. But just keep your faith in God and don't take your focus off of him -- similar to Peter walking on water. When he had his eye on Jesus, things were fine. But when he took his eyes off of the Lord and onto the circumstances, that's when his faith weakened and started to drown. So no matter what happens from now on, no matter how hard the situation you face, try to not let your mind panic from the circumstances, but meditate on the promises of God's word. I'll be praying for you and your family! May God's peace be with you

Hugs Bettie, keep looking to Jesus,He will bring you the disernment, wisdom and streangth ou need.
Setting you, your daughter, and your husband before God in Jesus's name for all the healing, protection, understanding, comfort, His love, and the joy of salvation to fill you and your life.

Huge hugs and god bless
pickles

By the way, praise God he saved you and you are still with us today!

All I can say is my heart goes out to you. I am suffering in a different way and felt compassion for you as I read your post. God saved you and you have a purpose for being alive.

The answer to your question is in 1 Corinthians 7.

Bettie,


I can't begin to imagine what it would feel like to be in your shoes.
But...we have a savior who knows our hearts
I have had a troubled heart many times myself for other reasons.
Like others have said keep your focus and faith in Jesus,
And all will work out for His good.
I will pray for you, your husband and daughter.
Prayers and blessings, Shekaniah

PS
I had not been on here for over a week.
God moved me to log on.
He loves you and moves hearts to pray for you.

Thank you all for the words of encouragement, the scriptures too. I need to spend my time reading my Bible anyways. Last night when I wrote this post I was feeling depressed, and sort of numb. It is an odd way to feel. A sadness in your heart but numbness in your mind because you feel powerless. I woke up this morning andf read everything you wrote and it did encourage me.

Especially the story about Peter. That is who I am today. I listened to a song called the voice of truth by casting crowns and it always gives me hope. I feel God speaks to me in very subtle ways, like a song coming on the radio, the right one i just needed to hear at that right moment. Thank you everyone. I understand why the Bible says that we need fellowship.

Hi Bettie

Please do not lose hope, remember that these are troubled time and things will be affecting us more and more as time passes by. Find comfort that goes knows your heart and your needs; seek him, believe in him, place your faith and your life in his hands for he will take care of the rest. Always pray that his Will be done and let that be what drives you, always ask within his will and you will find that he is always watching.

Also there are times when God shakes things up in our lives in order incite changes or because we been walking the wrong way (he always seeks his lost sheep).
I will pray that God is the one that drives the next few days and appointments which you must be part of, and that you never attempt against your life, Ever Again!! please and i'll be praying for your Husband so that he may come to Christ and add another soul to this wonderful plan that God has for us.

Please remember you have a Daughter and she will need you no matter what; and us your brothers/sisters/friends in Christ would be sad to lose another soul. Stay active here when you get depressed and ask God for his peace.

God Bless You and Your family.

Great Support From Everyone

A part of recovery and healing is to begin with a look at reality as it relates to all parties directly involved with your circumstances.

The Legal Perspective: Your husband’s job is in jeopardy because he is the first target. You are suspect for possibly cover-up and considered a potential victim of spousal abuse. Until the evidence is processed and a conclusion drawn as what is “their real truth”, the morass continues and becomes a living nightmare without resolve.

Moral Truth: The dilemma for moral truth, which was established by God’s ten commandments and the human conscience; i.e., “knowledge of good and evil”, of what is “actually” the real events of occurrence establishes moral truth or guilt. Only you and your family, the adults in this case, know the moral truth of matters concerning the child’s injury.

Comparative Analysis: In the perspective of the (“Eyes of the Law, EOTL”) justice system someone is guilty and it is not the child or the pet; an adult is. EOTL views suicide or the attempt thereof, as an act of guilt-remorse or guilt-escapism or fear of recompense for punishment. In the perspective of God (Eyes of God—Sees All) he already saw and know the moral truth of the matter.

What to Do: You made the most important “first” step when you sought God for help. The Bible says this concerning sin:
· Proverbs 28:13, "He that covereth his sins shall not prosper: but whoso confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy."
· 1 John 1:9, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from ALL unrighteousness." It is vital to understand that these scriptures are referring to confession to God not man.

Second step: “FIND A CRIMINAL LAWYER” fast, preferably a Christian lawyer and confess to her/him the “TRUTH” no matter what it is. No I am not saying that either of the adults are guilty, and since I am a Christian I never assume guilt but the Legal System does. So when you are accused of a crime; keep your mouth shut and do your confessing to your LAWYER and be certain they are under fiduciary responsibility (legal relationship established) to you as their client.

It is a reality that someone is going to be found guilty and whether either party are innocent or not that does not matter; in the EOTL someone is guilty unless they can prove otherwise. Therefore, I say again, “FIND A CRIMINAL LAWYER” because the EOTL do not care about prayer, God, or good intentions that is until sentencing (EOTL's Mercy of the Court); if it reaches this stage, it is too late. Always remember when you deal with EOTL, the only truth to EOTL is “legal evidence”; do not confuse that with who is morally innocent or guilty.

God is concerned with repentance from sin and help for the innocent. Jesus died for all sins no matter what they are. Never stop praying and when confessing to "man" do it with a LAWYER; I hope this helps.

Word of Wisdom To All Christians: "When Accused of a Crime; Miracles Happen After You Retain A Lawyer"; Living Epistle 2013.

In Your Favor Concerning Your Marriage

Be Strong, God Will Deliver

I do not believe that your husband is intentionally being distant, it is just that may be he knows the gravity of the situation; that is based upon your statements made on this site. Becoming a Marine is no easy accomplishment. It is a life changing experience and something to be proud. I really do not believe he is being this way intentionally. This is a very serious case with allot of stress on the entire family.

Advice concerning the marriage is to prioritize the court case and each of you gives one another space to seek God in their own way concerning your dilemma. Top Priority begins with the child and we pray that God will intervene and cause the judge to rule in your family's favor. Silly accidents happen.

My prayers and sincere empathy for all concerned. Jesus is the answer in the court and for your marriage. I am praying for His solution concerning all your circumstance. Be encouraged, Jesus never fails when we trust in Him.

Living Epistle

Thank you for understanding that accidents happen. Thos whole thing has taken a toll on my family but with that being said it has brought me closer to god.

I'd also like to clarify that there is no criminal case. My husband has since been cleared of any sexual abuse. They subjected my daughter to 6 examinations and one exam had to be done under sedation she is only 2.

We have to go to family court on May 16th. Its a department of social services case and they are now alledging that I neglected my daughter. I took her diaper off and threw it in the trash I only turned my back for a second and the puppy who again is only 3 months old jumped all over her and I had to run over and pull her off my daughter. But theyre claiming she wasn't properly supervised. What happened to a justice system where we are innocent until proven guilty?!

One thing that I am truly blessed and thankful for is that my sister, who is also a marine, has my daughter and that I get to see my daughter everyweekend. We paid money for a good lawyer instead of a court appointed one. We had 2 in mind and the day we were to meet one of them they cancelled and the other one got us in the same day. I took that as God closing one door and opening the other for me. I havent given up hope that I will get my daughter back on May 16

I'd like to offer some Godly advice specifically regarding one of the points you've made
If you wish to have a Godly family unit you are a key factor in what cements it together.
Even though your husband is called to be the leader of the family unit, nonetheless in regards to your own relationship with God, what also matters is that you do right by following his word.

1 Peter 3:1

1Wives, in the same way submit yourselves to your own husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives,

Sorry to hear all you are going through, it can be a struggle at times, just keep your focus on Gods words and when the devil attacks you'll have nothing to answer for by following Christ.

I just wanted to update you all. The devil continues to attack my family.
On Thursday of last week I got a call from someone who was suppose to be a friend asking me to have my husband tell a lie to his command to cover for her husband that had diliberately disobeyed orders. I told her no that we couldnt do something like that and risk ourselves further trouble. So she has went on a with hunt now!
She became very angry with me and she called social services and told them numerous lies and is claiming that she is going to show up in court to tell the judge lies and shes continually harrassed me through facebook and phone messaging.It got so bad that last night i had to go to the police and file harrassment against her.
I am not angry though, I feel sorry for her and that her heart is so hateful, and sad that I lost someone who was suppose to be a friend. Please pray for this girl.

I'm glad you see it for what it is, which is just a spiritual battle. I'll be praying for her, as well as continue to pray for you and your family!

Praying sweetheart