My husband is poorly, it breaks my heart he's fighting. Talking about buying a narrow boat is his dream, but he's no where near fit enough and neither am I, due to my own ill health with feet and mental health problems. It's breaking my heart he's never happy, watching someone suffer is tiring and sufficating at times. I'm fully aware of what's happening but I get so tired mentally. I can see him being snappy and he can take it out on me. It's so hard. None understands cancer until they have looked after someone with it, so many unwanted symptoms he has from peeing alot to not eating.