Inability to listen to God or even sometimes believe.

I was saved about 4 years ago, and I have been doubting my faith at times. I get really bad anxiety when I eat food to the point of thoughts of suicide or giving up on God. I see visions of a girl I liked being pleased by other people, if you get my drift, and I see the same with visions of guys at times. I am struggling with a porn addiction and it absolutely breaks my heart, I assume it might have something to do with my visions of the opposite sex and same since that sort of exposure has no bounds. All of these thoughts and feelings and doubts happen after I eat, and it feels like I'm fighting a losing battle. I try to fast but I can't bring myself to do it. it's difficult for me to even function at times, like look for work or even talk to people. The story goes deeper then that, but the main points are there, I need prayer that's for certain. I have prayed and prayed, Read the bible a lot, I've spoken with pastors, brothers, and friends. It's driving me mad, and I war within my mind, I currently live at a mission for homeless people. I pray no one else goes through anything even near this tormenting, God bless and remember those out there who are weak because I know I am.

You have spent years feeding and training your brain to think a certain way. Now, you need to do it again, but focus on what is pure and right and just and honest. You need to eliminate completely the things that trigger your mind to go there...and I'm not talking about food or things, but if internet is a temptation, cut it off. If certain movies, actors, books, magazines are triggers, cut them out and stop viewing them. Same thing with music. You need to take the steps to be free. Christ has already set you free, already opened the doors, you need to go through them. No one can do it for you.

I've heard something real similar to that, I have made huge steps forward. I just find it odd that food is my trigger, and how much it can effect me. I know to take everything into captivity, and cast my anxieties at Jesus, it just isn't always that easy. Well that you for your concern.

For me, it ultimately came down to a choice: what did I want more. I had to choose daily that I wanted Christ more than the sin that held me bound. I am free of a sin that held me so tightly that I never thought I'd be free. Yet, on that day when I decided that I wanted Christ more than the sin, I began taking steps toward freedom. Today, that sin has absolutely no hold on me.

However, I had to discover and acknowledge and remove my triggers and never let them back in. If I even decided to let one in, I would be back on the battlefield again.

When you're eating, worship God. Tell Jesus all the wonderful things about Him and thank Him for the food after each bite. This won't be required forever, but if you're going to retrain your brain, you need to be aggressive about it.

Dear Father In Heaven

Please Father help Terbear with the issues he is going through right now. Food seems to be his trigger so Father help him to choose good and healthy food to feed his mind and body. It seems temptations are thrown at us from every area in our lives Father so help Terbear to focus on You and help him to know that you are with him and will help him overcome these temptations. Thank you for answering this prayer Father - In Jesus name Amen


I would suggest that you find a mentor that you trust- your pastor, or a well grounded friend and when you feel temptation maybe give them a call to refocus yourself away from the temptation. Also if you are going to a church maybe try and get involved in a project that the church has going to keep yourself busy and occupy your mind with something else. - Love in Christ.

Fill yourself full of the Holy Spirit. It is all over the scriptures and it's been a tried and true for thousands of years. It is said, that when full of the spirit, there is NO room for evil. There cannot be both Good and Evil within you at the same time, that my friend, is written. Do whatever it takes to fill your mind and soul with heavenly influence. Maybe you are at a weak point in your walk, and you may need to find another trustworthy person, or better yet, persons of faith. Have them lay hands on you and pray away this evil that has taken up in your mind. Have them pray for the filling of the God's Holy Spirit within your soul, body, and mind. And of course, as already mentioned, you must cut off ANY influences in your life that help feed this evil into your mind. Remember... If your mind is full of good heavenly thoughts, evil thoughts cannot enter, it's impossible and God himself had it put on paper! A prayer said from me and God bless you. Please keep us updated on this.

A bit of a personal story or rather a testimony TerBear - I too struggled with similar things for many years, its' so easy and with the ease of access to these things, and conditioning of TV adverts shoving half naked people in your face all the time, it really is one of the hardest most difficult additions to overcome. But that's just where it gets interesting. God our Father helps us to overcome the weakness of the flesh, he gives us wisdom to discern between what is from God and What is NOT, and he gives us constant guidance to make the right choices. Like Mystdancer50 said - it comes down to choice. And you are strong enough to chose.

You mentioned that it goes deeper than that - and without wanting to make assumptions - my problem stemmed from being abused from the early age of 7, as my memory serves me to remember. The question I always used to ask "Why me?" Why did God not let that cup pass me by? But you know what? Today I can say that God did not let that Cup pass me by, because there are others who suffer just like I did, and without me knowing how that felt, I could never relate to their pain.

All I'm saying - there is deliverance, for a past you did not ask for, for a present you do not want, and for a future you would rather avoid. That deliverance is to Choose what is Holy and Right and give it over to God.