Its the straw that broke the camel's back

Im sad. I have a lot to be sad for, but I'm usually pretty happy. But something snapped in me yesterday. I'm not suicidal. I'm not non-functional. But I feel worse than I have in a long time.
1. My dad died a month ago and a lot of the last day choices fell on me even though he had disowned me. I planned the funeral.
2. My stepmoms father just died on Saturday and I'm very sad for her.
3. I have had to cut off much communication with my mother because of her unhealth. Yesterday she went in for surgery and the drs said there wasn't enough tissue to repair. So she is permanently disabled and has 3 more surgeries to do for other issues.
4. I started a medical trial a month ago and was supposed to get the results soon. Instead I got a call yesterday that all my blood tests were invalid because sent the wrong filter paper, so I have to wait another month for the results.
5. I'm dreaming all night and day about people dying. It's crazy.
I love Jesus, but this is just my current emotional state.

*hugs*

That is a lot to handle in one go. Praying.

Prayers for you!
2 Thess 3:16
Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of you.

Hi, I am sorry for all that you are going through. I do how ever understand where you are comming from. The burden is heavy and some days you feel as though you are being crushed by them. I lost my home to fire in 2007, my mom passed away in 2008 and I was told my husband had terminal cancer the day after my mom died. I lost my grandmother in 2010 and tried my best to save my husband and lost that fight in 2011. The pain was almost more than I could bare and some days it filled as though the walls were closing in on me. I told you all this so you can see why I understand what you are going through. The only way I could get through each day was by the grace of God and I decided to live just one day at a time and see if I could get through that one. I still have some problems but not like I use to. I have started eating again and even can laugh now. My heart goes out to you and what you are enduring.

Father I ask thee in the name of Jesus to bring that peace that passes all understanding into the heart Jordache. Give him strength farther to get through each day and to find joy once more. Wipe the tears and the burdens from him and comfort him as only you can. I thank you Father for loving us and being there for us in our most difficult times. Without your guidence and strength we would surely crumble. Bless Jordache as anly you can. In Jesus name I pray Amen

Hugs Jordache, Im praying for you in Jesus.

God bless
pickles

prayed for you. Keep your chin up. With dark days the days of light are soon to follow.

2Sam 22:3
The God of my rock; in him will I trust: [he is] my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my high tower, and my refuge, my saviour; thou savest me from violence.

With everything you're going through, with all kind of trials, every valleys, every cross roads, through every storms, with every tears, in hopelessness, in loneliness, in your brokeness and through the dark valley of the shadow of death. There's ONE WHO IS ABLE, ONE WHO CAN HELP YOU, LEAD YOU, DIRECT YOU, TEACH YOU, COMFORT YOU, ABIDE WITH YOU, STRENGTHEN YOU, ELEVATE YOU, STAND WITH YOU, REVIVE YOU, REGENERATE YOU, CHANGE YOU COMPLETELY AND HE WILL ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOU WITH AN EVERLASTING LOVE IN HOLINESS. HIS NAME IS JESUS, YOUR LOVER, YOUR INTIMATE ROSE OF SHARON, YOUR MORNING STAR, YOUR HEALER, YOUR RISEN KING OF GLORY, ALL FOR YOU, ALL IN ALL JUST FOR YOU. THE ONE WHO CAN ROCK YOUR WORLD into ETERNITY. just call HIS NAME and watch His breath of LIFE, fan the flames and spread your sails of faith from glory to glory, from strength to strength and from height to height. AMEN BLESSED BE.