Just pray

Please pray for me. I really can't get into details because there are certain members who'd react in judgement and I really can't deal with that now. I'm caught in a situation that I just have no idea how to frame. It's completely unfair, and i know we were never promised fairness... But I feel like I'm always the one getting the unfair treatment. It's for something I really had no hand in causing, but has caused a huge rift in one of my deepest friendships.
Please just pray. I may seem desperate at times, but I never actually admit it. This time I will. I am beyond desperate. This situation leaves me feeling completely hopeless, alone, confused, rejected, and abandoned. I haven't felt this low in months, but today the last straw was probably the word he had about people who long for heaven. To the extent you long for heaven, that is the extent that God has purposed you on earth.
I never understood people who just wanted to go to heaven. But these last few years, I have become that person who just longs to be with Jesus in a place where there is no more pain and no more grief. I know God has a high calling on my life, and many people have recognized that calling. In fact, that calling has been the source of much grief and spiritual opposition. More than anything I want to honor God in my life. Sure I would rather be in heaven, but I want to live now according to the high purpose God has called me to now. But it just seems like so much pain sometimes... losing so many people... so much pruning... So many purifying flames... And so many people even well meaning ones that get in the way and inflict their own pain. Sometimes I really don't want this calling, but I also know that God has honored me with the story I have in order to make me that much more affective in His service.

Praying for you.

Jordache as I am writing this I am going through a storm of my own as well . I feel as you do , as far as things happening that do not seem fair , or deserved . God has the ability to shake our lives so that the things that want to attach themselves to us , the things that mar our beauty , and mask our true selves , have to fall to the ground . We are living in a day and an age when the enemy knows that his time here on Planet Earth , is very short . So he is working feverishly to persuade the believer into thinking , ' well , if this chaos has broken out in my life , then I must being doing something wrong , I must be in the wrong place , I must be falling short of Gods calling , somewhere . Let me tell you something about myself . I was an alchohaulic by the time I was 15 years old . By the time that I was 18 I was heavily involved in drugs and witchcraft . Today , I am 42 years old . God has set me free from those things , and has placed a prophetic calling on my life . There isnt a day that goes by that I don't wonder what God was thinking when he saved me . I am one of the most imperfect people that I know . But the Grace of God has never once left me . His presence has been with me every day of my life , even in the darkest of circumstances . His Voice speaks to you today and it says , ' Jordache , let my Peace , rule and reign in your heart and mind through Christ Jesus . I am right here , Heaven is a place , but I am an ever present help . Heaven is being prepared for your arrival one day , but your calling , has already been prepared ' . Father God , we thank you for Jordache . Lord God what a mighty work it is that you have for her . To move mountains in areas uniquely suited , for her gifts and talents . There is power there Lord . Underestimated by the enemy is a warriors ability to wage war . Lord let every hindering spirit be served notice tonight . We bind the powers and principalities of darkness , and we command them to go in the Name of Jesus . Lord for your Peace , for your Grace , and for Blood that was shed on Calvary , we give you praise , and honor , and glory , in Jesus name , Amen .

Huge hugs Jordache, already praying and will keep praying for you in Jesus's name.

God bless
pickles

Jordache when we are to pray, we must calm down our hearts. Let not your heart be troubled when you pray to God. Of course this is easier said than done, and remember slow down. You know we are praying for you. God Bless!

I can always count in pickles!

Trifecta,
Wise words for sure. I know Gods plan for me is good, but its not always fun or comfortable. It actually downright torture sometimes. God has delivered me from much and is continuing His work until His glory is made manifest in me. Christ in me is my hope of glory.

I can honestly say; I too am looking forward to a life with Jesus.
Prayers sent for you with a understanding heart.
Love & hugs, Shekaniah

I came across your name last nite on cc and the Lord pressed it upon my heart to pray for you right then. You are completely covered Jordache and you just need to really trust him. I see that you let fears and anxiety take over with your mindset and you get overwelmed because you are trying to do it on your strength and not the Lords. Peace, you should be at peace and feel peace because of the trust you have in your heart for the Lord and because you are his Daughter and he gives us his peace. Claim it on Jesus name whenever you find your mind and thoughts taking over and causing you all kinds of mental anguish. Just.........Trust............Him! Say out loud "I claim the peace of Jesus on Jesus name, thank you Jesus" The devil really mentally bashes you and you need to become aware of when he is doing it so that you can fight it with scripture. I will always pray for you sweetie. God Bless

praying for your dtrength in the LORD.

I am praying for you god bless you!!!