lost and cant find my way back

ive been battling with depression for some years. ive had some things to occur in my life over the years that have worsened the depression and anxiety. i got pregnant at a young age and has had to be a single mother, struggling thru school to create a better life for me and my child, someone i cared about today walked out of my life without so much as im sorry and meant it. and the icing on the cake, the love of my life, the man i was supposed to marry passed away this evening due to left sided heart failure. im broken, hurt and words cant begin to explain how much i miss him. he lived in new york i in alabama, theres no way i can get to him in time for the funeral to say goodbye. i need prayer, for healing, to let go of all the pain ive been harboring over the years, to grow and be happy for once. to come to terms that god needed my love more with him. i just cant let him go right now....

sweetie I am really so sorry that you are going through so much right now and I lift you up to the Lord asking that he let you feel his comfort and his peace and that He is with you right this second and that He gives you all that you need to overcome the pain I ask on Jesus name, amen. Have hope in our Lord, He will see you through this. Be blessed sweetie.

I'm so sorry! Praying for the Comforter to be with you in this pain and show you a future of love and security. Lean on Him, and He will lift you up. Do you have some Christian friends? If not, seek out a Church...there is nothing like the support of loving Christians when you're hurting. And especially open God's Word...this is how He speaks to us and He wants to speak to you very much. He has an immense love for you and wants to help you .

May God continue to bless your soul, Brokenone. First I have to say that you should regard God as first and foremost in all matters and with all reverence. When you write His name or refer to His majesty you have to capitalize His name always. You must not allow Lucifer to fool you into thinking all is hopeless or without a solution. Your mindset makes a lot of difference. See yourself as a spiritual being in a body of flesh and blood, then accept the fact that since you have accepted Jesus into your life, your are now a Born Again Christian and is a child of the KING. Know that fact as you know any other fact in your life; The sun will set tonight and will rise again tomorrow morning and the devil is a masterful deceiver of all humans, he twists the truth always. All that we have gotten or have been given since we were born, are to be considered gifts from our Father. God is generous to all of us, to His children and to those that do not know Him as well. Our parents, our brothers and sisters, our successes and our challenges, our car, our home, all are to be considered as gifts from God. It is God's right to remove His gifts from us for his own purposes. Sometimes God removes the gifts for us to grow without distraction in serving Him or because it allows us to grow spiritually. We, are to always know in our hearts that our Father is always with us in spirit and our guardian angels are always at our side (Psalm 91). We always have to keep in mind that we came into this world naked without a stitch of clothing on nor a penny at our side, all that we have belongs to God, therefore we must always be considerate for all that we have, it is a blessing. Since we were all born in sin and shapen in inequity, we are now all sinners and must always be ready, willing and able to repent when ever we get the chance to do so, because at any moment we can die or have a critical moment when and accident happens, or even make a mistake that leads to our end, either by being at the wrong place at the wrong time or Lucifer sends someone to us just to make our life miserable and things escalate to the point where we lose it for the worst. Not all the people we meet in life is meant for us and not all the people that meet us, mean us well. Always pray before you rise out of your bed, leave the house, have a meal, meat a friend or stranger, give God thanks in all things. And always talk to your guardians (spiritual) for although they are not seen, they are with you always there to guide you in all that you do and say. So read the Word of God always, speak to your Father in spirit and in truth, and look forward to continuing in spiritual fellowship with fellow Christians, your encouragement in spiritual and life truths comes from that corner as well.

Hugs, praying for you and all you need in Jesus's name.
Praying also that Jesus will delight you with His love.

God bless
pickles

Hi - So sorry for your loss of your previous boyfriend. You can still honor his memory by having a little 'service' for
him at home where you live. If you know approximately the time when the formal service is being held in that other
city then do your service at the same time - you'll be united in prayer that way. But even if you don't know the
exact time, no worries. Just collect up a Bible, a candle, maybe a picture of your old boyfriend or if not picture then
something that he liked or reminds you of him (ie if He liked a certain kind of dog...then put a picture of that on the table
with your Bible and candle.) Start with the Lord's Prayer....light the candle you have...Open your Bible and read a Psalm
or other passages that bring you comfort....(there are some nice remembrance poems at this one website: Sympathy Poems - Poems about Sympathy ). And chose another reading like a poem if you wish to do that. Then just allow yourself a bit of time to remember your dear friend and send prayers his soul's way. It's okay to cry and
just 'be' there with your grief. And when you go to say good-bye and put the candle out finish with "And as this candle light goes out, carry dear God my love to _____. Jesus be with him and also with me and my family. I give you thanks and praise God, for my having known____(his name). May he be with you in a safe place and in your eternal arms. Amen.
---Or say something like this as you put the candle out. And you know it is fine to leave this little 'shrine' or memorial to your boyfriend for a few days or weeks.....as long as you need....some people also like to have some flowers (maybe you have some fake ones or could collect some flowers from outside in a cup, for a bit of color). None of this has to cost money but it is a way of connecting with remembering your loved one, even though you can't be at the other service far away. May God be with you as your do this and comfort you as you mourn. Peace and Blessings +

So sorry for all your loss and heartbreak. I am praying for you Brokenone.