I feel I want to add some more on, as this is a serious thing. There are not many churches in this town. I've also been to churches out of this town, and didn't feel called there. I've been in churches where the people put curses on the church, because of some personal*issues*with people, I've been in churches where I've been physically grabbed by another women, been*grabbed*on my arm by ushers, and rubbed against my behind by another usher, called names, had my*daughter*at a time when she was little bitten by another child, and her teeth marks were on my children for weeks, went to pick up my child from nursery care, and was no where to be found, just a few seconds from calling the police, some teenager guy was seen walking around with her, from the church, yelled at by another person, going through a divorce, bad mouthed, it could of on and on. When things get sexual, by ushers, and physical there is a problem in today's so called churches. I've been a singer, and musical player in the church, and nothing needs to take place, on a Sunday, just walk in and things start at me like a demonic attack. Raising 2 children, my priority is to take or had taken my children to learn about the Lord, regardless what some one thinks as why going to a church, it is very obvious, we as believers, are bound by the Love of One FAther, though some act as though they belong to satan.
I need to take this off my heart, as it is causing me severe distress, and I wasnt able to sleep since Sunday, believing prayers will be in agreement with what to do. In the Sundays*bulletin, it says, youth group 13 and up. My daughter who just finished and*published*her first novel, spent a lot of time at home, working on it, it was a blessing to be able to go and fellowship with others. Friday she told me how blessed she was, and what a difference it was from the old youth group, the music, wasn't loud, and she said she felt an*anointing*on it. Great, so we went to church Sunday and after, the over seerers confronted her, saying we need to talk to you, not a greeting, not a hug, not a good to see you, this is putting Love first, building one another up, this is what Jesus teaches us. I saw her face, and she was treated like a child, being 20, she was very submissive, and me standing next to her, she asked very gently, did I do something, we had to wait, and it was like a*grueling*torture, when she said, that she couldn't attend the youth group because it was up to 17. As in the*bulletin, said 13 and up, and so was the announcement made 13 and up. FRiday there were other girls from Nigeria, one her age, and another in collage, so everyone read it correctly. I was almost destroyed, it turned out to be a disaster in that church, the lady yelling at me, when I said I was going to talk to the paster, she came running after me down the aisle, yelling no you can't do that, why not, everyone has a right to walk and talk, then as I was talking to the paster she started pointing her finger into my face, and yelling again. This is something out of the book of acts, when there was a fortune teller girl, who followed Paul and Silas, around, screaming at them, I know who you are preaching Jesus, she was stalking them, and harassing them and distracting them from the Lord's work.
She was demon possessed, and the demons left her after Paul turned and rebuked her. This was a horrible scene, right after service. This is why I'm asking for prayer and to be lead, I've prayed about this, and am giving it a few months, and I will be determined never to go back there. I feel sometimes when the Lord*doesn't*want you some place, going back, is not his will, and he allows things to happen, so this might be one of these things. In one church they asked me to leave in the middle of praying on my knees,*because*I didn't put money in the*offering, and as rules, in other churches women need not cut their hair, or they are asked to leave, or cover their hair, etc. Some don't come in jeans, some don't come at all if your not shaven, etc. I know that the devil, who is orchestrating this, wants to isolate me, and devastate me, and say that all your praying for is going past the ears of God, and he*doesn't*care for you, and*doesn't*love you and*doesn't*hear you. This is why so many have loved me here, so many have said to me, jkalyna I'm thankful to the Lord, that he made you, that he created you, and they've said I am loved by them, I am so hurt right now, by what happened. Tears are on my checks, but even as they are the HOly spirit is speaking and saying , you shall be hated, and turn the other cheek. It does not matter if those who say they are believers, act like this, as church is just a building, and the fruits of the HOly Spirit should be cultivated, grown, and remain, and Love should be the aim, not a church game that's played with other souls, and lives, where people as myself want to fellowship, and want a home church, to be loved, and to love, were supposed to be a family, within the FAther, engrafted, and no one is greater than another, THE one who is greater, let him by the servant, and wash the other's feet, Jesus did this in example. We are both upset, and not feeling the peace of the Lord right now. Maybe it is the Lords will to be there, and the wicked one, is trying to get me out, I will try a few more months, and believing and knowing this time, if I am lead away from there, it is not where my FAther wants us to be. This is a horrific thing to go through. I am standing on the word that declares, no weapon formed against us shall prosper, no tongue risen up in judgement shall prevail, and the most important is { that we are more than conquerors THROUGH Christ Jesus } my Lord and Savior. ** *All this for nothing, like the wedding those were called, they didn't want to come, those came who were dressed just as they were from the STreet corners, it should be glad you came.
