Praises galore:
When John came home on June 23rd, we both were sure he could take the 13 steps up to his bed and our bathroom. Technically, he did, but I had to help him up the last two steps, so he couldn't do that quickly enough to make a safe bathroom trip on his own. (We have a commode and he has his sofa, so not as bad as that sounds. lol) And when he came downstairs he needed me in front of him, just in case.
When he came home, he had no teeth, had to use his wheelchair for his first doctors appointments, but managed around the house with walkers, could make his own breakfast, but I had to carry it to the place he wanted to eat it and bring in his coffee, and his wound had been stuck at about the size of a quarter in width, depth, and length for a full month. (The nursing home simply gave up using the wound vac for the last two weeks because it stopped having a vacuum after half an hour or an hour.)
When I wrote my last post on here, I didn't think he'd be home until September to November. Come to think of it, at the last post I wrote, I thought he'd be on catheters all his life, but God did do the miraculous and his doctor had to come in to see him specifically because no one's bladder works in a mere 6 hours after being on a foley for six months.
It feels like it's taken the longest time to recover since then, but here is where he is today -- August 21.
-- Dentures take some adjusting. So he couldn't eat a big slab of chicken breast right away. He was still on soft foods. (Ground meat, over cooked veggies, easy to chew desserts, etc.) Yesterday he ate lettuce. This is big! This is something you really have to rip apart with your teeth. So, not only does he have teeth, he can use them pretty well too. (Probably take a week or two before he goes for a big chunk of chicken breast.)
-- Thursday was a big day. He had an appointment to go see the wound care nurse. Two nurses had put their heads together to figure out how to keep the wound vac working for two days. (His in-home nurse came every other day, so it had to work well enough that it wasn't my job to make it work in between.) They did figure it out, and he got disposable wound vacs that lasted one week each. For the first two weeks at home, the size of the wound didn't change. To be clear, he still has an insy left cheek, so it's going to take a long time to find out if it refills with the usual stuff our hind cheeks are filled with, but inside that insy is the wound itself. It now looks like half of a pitted cherry. Half of the end of a Q-tip fits into it. HE'S OFF THE PUMP!!!
For the first time since November he is unfettered. No tubes putting stuff into him. No tubes taking stuff out of him. AND, he doesn't have to carry around something about the size of a small pocketbook filled with coins around his neck.
He's free! No more hearing ticking noises that hint that, if left unchecked, will become a relentless beep beep every ten seconds. (We actually had names for those ticking noises that ranged from geiger counter, to cat purring, to "it's coming." It's bad when you know the difference in the sounds of a machine that doesn't technically malfunction until a beeping noise, but still can tell when it's getting close to that.) I am now able to change his bandage. No more need for in-home nurse. (Although we will miss her. She had the same taste in music as John. If we weren't disabled, she would have become a friend.)
And, we were told he'd need a skin graft after the wound healed, but not to worry. The VA hospital would do it. Ummm, that was our worry. They screwed up everything else up, couldn't take care of him the last time, and how could we not worry they would just screw it up even more? So I spent the last couple of months talking the hospital that gave him the bedsore to be the people who would fix him, if it was needed. Last week, they finally answered my request. Without saying they were guilty, they would have him see their plastic surgeon for a consult for free. First step and it was a long process to get that far.
Thursday, his wound care nurse said he doesn't need a skin graft! Yay! Preparation not needed!
After the wound care appointment and a CT scan of John's lungs again, (his mother had TB, so both John and his brother have had a dark spot in their lungs since they were kids. This alarms doctors every few years, so they have to make sure it's not something else. It isn't), we walked down to the other end of the hospital to find Yen John's first PT to thank her.
Walked. As in, he uses a cane now. We knew we were near the PT room, but weren't quite sure where it was, when the elevator opened and out walked Yen! Yen is the woman who first got John to stand, to be able to roll on his side, and who saved him from incompetent nurses who pretended they didn't know how to use a lift so sandwiched John in his with nothing but a poop bag stopping his chest from hitting his knees. She is the one who fought to get him a wheelchair he could lean back in. She is the one who fought for him to keep getting better despite what was happening around him. And in true fashion, she got so excited to see him, told who she had talked to to find out how he's doing, while hugging him, and then got serious and told him he sounded winded. (Yeah. Cane. First week using just the cane and he just walked the entire length of a hospital corridor, so winded. lol) And then she gave him tips on how to protect his wound before he showed her no wound vac. And she got to see him with teeth. One of those magical moments when words just disappeared... except "Thank you." (Thank you is so often just not enough, but all we can offer.)
-- He stopped needing his PT and OT a couple of weeks ago, which is a good thing, since his PT had him walking up and down the block in the walker at noon during heat waves. And his OT had him climbing up and down our steps during those same heatwaves and the only a/c we have are window units, so our upstairs hall and bathroom can get hotter than outside. (Walking up our steps is like walking out of a pool. The first floor's ceiling is the water line. You can feel the hot air exactly at that level.)
What clued the PT that he wasn't needed anymore was the day before he came, John and I walked over to our local Rite Aid, which is the length of walking down our street away, then he walked through it to buy stuff, then after we bought the stuff, we walked across the street into our local park and enjoyed some relaxing time under the trees. (I needed to rest by then more than John.) And then we came home. PT had him walk down the block. What John did that day was the equivalent of walking around two blocks. lol
-- The wheelchair came out of the trunk in our car. The walkers are put away. John is using a cane. Out of the house. In the house he leaves it behind. The first week he was home, he went grocery shopping with me in his wheelchair. Last week we went shopping in two different stores and he walked using the cart as his canoe. (We have room for the groceries again! Yippee! lol)
-- John is able to take showers upstairs now. He took his first shower in eight months three weeks ago. (He washed at the sink before that.) The commode hasn't been needed in three weeks. Stairs still make him nervous, and muscle memory has been replaced with concentration, so he doesn't sleep upstairs yet. (He can't sleep at night, and despite me telling him I can wake up, help him, and then go back to sleep, he doesn't want to bother me.) I give that 1-2 more weeks.
-- Grilling. This was his big dream when he came home. He wanted to make a turkey breast the first weekend he was home, but I had to negotiate that down quite a bit, because I knew I'd be the only one carrying stuff, and by then I was utterly exhausted. I talked him down to turkey burgers. It was a disaster. He can't just grill meat. He has to grill veggies too. And his eye-hand coordination was terrible. He meant to pick up a half onion on the grill to turn it over. Instead I got hit by the onion. lol (I thought it was funny, but he was angry at himself.) We did have the turkey burgers that night, but so many things went wrong, he felt like a failure.
And then last night we planned on turkey burgers on the grill again. This time he set up the charcoal himself (including lugging the bag of charcoal briquets.) The veggies were the size he wanted because he cut them himself. And, sure enough, more grill problems. For some reason the briquets didn't light right, so he got the side ones burning but not the bulk. (He grilled successfully last week, so this is just working out the kinks of a new grill. We just bought the charcoal grill the end of last summer, so we forgot how to charcoal grill.) He wanted to toss the whole grill, but didn't. Instead we (and I mean WE) brought everything in and he did the rest of the work for dinner. He used the pancake griddle for the veggies and the stove top for the burgers. The only time he wanted my help is the same part he has always had me do -- prepare the rolls. (Split them and add the mayo, tomatoes, and lettuce.) What he did in the kitchen on his own (and after sweating an hour next to the uncooperative grill) was the equivalent of what he'd do when all the dishes are ready for our Thanksgiving dinner. This was Chef John fully in charge of a full course dinner. (The peaches were roasting on the griddle while we ate dinner. THAT massive and that good.)
-- To keep his wound healing, he's supposed to be eating lots of protein. And he is. Protein in every meal, and protein powder in milk shakes. (Milk has protein too, but my job is to keep us working right through fiber. So strawberry, blueberry or peach shakes.) We both feared with this much eating he'd gain weight again. Noper! Same weight as when he came home.
He's back! A little slower than before, but that is deliberate. Before he was rushing through life. Now he is living it deliberately. He's not 100% his old self, but then again there is a quarter of him gone now. (He lost 90 pounds because of all that happened. lol) He still has a ways to go. His bed is calling him. I'm now a bit nervous because I'm NOT nervous driving with him in the car. Eventually, he has to drive again. (He thinks this is optional, so he doesn't care. I do, but mostly because he needs all his independence back.) It's little stuff left.
God is sooo good!!!