Brother Jullom from Kansas, I am not about to blow any smoke upon your back,that things will be all right.Because our situation never becomes all right, until our mindset is! This is not about mind over matter either! But like you,what kept me homeless for 3 years was the fact that my thoughts ran just like yours are doing now.
I was a believer back then to! I was feeling very sorry for myself,i stopped praying because i found no use in asking the same thing each and everyday! I forsook my self! That is just what the enemy wanted!( john 10:10) he steals from you, then!!!( john 8:44) lies about how it got taken!
I fell for it for a while bro,because in truth,i wanted an excuse for myself! I am not saying this is true of you bro!! I am just speaking for me! Finally I just got very mad! And told myself I am not going to endure another day of thinking this way! A brother met me on the street, and told me this verse bro which I pass along to you.( psalm 27:13!) I would have despaired had I NOT BELIEVED,that I WOULD SEE the GOODNESS of GOD in the land of the LIVING!!! Our only work bro,no matter what!( john 6:28-29)
And so staying in God's Word everyday, Holy Spirit,was teaching me( 1 john 2:27)because I was paying attention, Holy Spirit began to teach and train my mind to be different. Within 30 days things began to drastically change! Miracle upon miracle was happening to me!! I kid you not! I got a place, and a job,found a fine church,and God was restoring me back in life to what he was showing me I was already in my own mindset!
I saw in my mind, myself out of problems bro,through his Word and speaking his Word out loud!( example matt 4:1-11) Jesus being God in the flesh spoke his own word!Over the enemy!( psalm 138:2) When we his children DO THIS!! We receive the very same results! I dear brother was learning accountability!! AND!! How to remain that way! If we take our own life,we have not only hurt ourself bro,but think of all the people around you,that you could have helped! We could indeed cause others to stumble because you, yes you brother,would have been the only person who could have helped another person in your area!
Life is not about us,but true we do need to become stable in life,and this always starts in our mindset bro! always!( col 3:2) Feeling sorry for ourself never works,and only makes us feel even worse! I know! Life is, nor is ever promised to be fair! BUT Jesus is fair and just!
He just wants men and women to have strong courage against all the odds of the world!He wants us to totally depend upon him bro! Not easy for me to do! I had been on my own since I was 16! I did not like the rules of the house,nor did I ever wish to abide in any! Even after Jesus saved me out of a mop closet in college i still had great problems in becoming accountable in both word and deed!SO!!
I suffered because of my own fault! I blame no one! That is what the enemy wants you to do though! A man or woman will never ever have authority in Christ Jesus, until they learn to take it!( matt 11:12!!!) Luke 10:19-20!) Getting angry is far better then tears,because anger can motivate one to do something! I hope you will consider this brother,because after now 38 years in Christ Jesus,i sure do depend upon my Jesus every single day of my life! Jesus made a true believer out of me,and sure can make one out of you!!( acts 10:34!)
He sure does NOT love me a bit more then he does you! BUT YOU!!!!! Have to believe this! You will know when you do bro, because your and suddley will come just as mine did!!( Acts 16:22-26!!!!) verse 26 comes when we believe!And when we believe we speak to! He opens the prison doors for us bro! I can confirm this!Blessing always to you,and remember his comfort is lasting!!( 2 cor 1:3-7!!)