Please help me to Love

Lord Jesus, I have a hard time accepting love. I have a hard time genuinely giving it without something in return. I am self-centered and selfish. I say the right things but I don't do the right things. My mind wanders with sinful thoughts. I have a entitled the world owes me mentality and attitude. I put others down in order to make myself look good. I hurt people around me when they get too close. I realize my wife is hurting and by my words and actions I have broken her. She does not trust me and she is afraid of me. I have been offended at her because when she expressed how she felt, I did not believe that to be me. I should have listened and understood her. She does not like to be fussed at and I would to get my way. She is sensitive and I was not gentle with her. Because of my hurt, I would deliberately try to hurt her and push her out of my life. I projected myself on to her. I took her love for granted and accused her of not loving me when I was hurt.

Jesus I am sorry. I confess my sins openly and publicly because I want to change and not hide from them. I don't want to blame her or anyone else anymore fr the way that I am. I plead for you to change my heart. Please give me a genuine heart of love and compassion. Please fill my heart with a genuine loving heart that is gentle and kind. Please forgive me for the wretched man that I am. I want to be happy but I know I deserve the pain that I have brought upon myself. Please help me to understanding of others and not self centered. Please help me to be a great father to Riley.

I made work and money my idol. I am sorry. Will you please help me to get out of this. I have enslaved myself to my job. Please help me to get free.

I do want my wife back. I am sorry.

You have a very troubled mind and I have prayed for you.

Taking ownership of your words and actions is the first step. So you're off on the right foot.

It'll take time to mend things with your wife, even after you change. So be patient.

Lord we pray for Roninbama, let you pour your love and bless. Release him from all things that is keeping him away from you. Lord bless you child Roninbama and he glorify and testify your name, Lord please hear his prayers and answer. In Jesus Holy name, Amen!

Beautiful humbling prayer, brother! You're in an awesome place: at the end of you and the beginning of God. Glory to His name! I pray blessings upon you & your family and that you be a testimony of the Lord's saving power and miraculous grace. In Jesus' name!

Praying for you here brother. Lets not forget about love.

we appreciate your honesty and intimate confessions...but know this, unless you make
an exceptional move in yourself, such as taking-up the Holy Bible and have the desire
for it to 'cover' you, in truly believing in Jesus' healing, delivering powers, nothing worldly will change,
and of course this can only come about with true and honest seeking with actions
that are un-deniable to yourself and those around you...
no one can 'fool' Christ, and so, mere 'words' will never mean a thing, unless followed
with heartfelt action on one's part, for our Lord knows everything that we will ever do
or think, nothing gets past Him or those who He elects...

ultimately, no matter what we do, it is our Holy Saviour who does the real calling-out
of our beings from this wicked world, for many know of Him and even believe in him to a point,
but no one can 'come to Him without Him calling them first'...

Now make things right. You should start to make things right with God and His Son Jesus. Confession and repentance: 1 John 1:9 says, If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Even though God already knows what you have been doing, He is waiting for you to tell Him. Confessing and agreeing with God does a couple of things; first it causes us to agree with God that our behavior is not acceptable. Here is one example our Lord has given: 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8: “ Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.” Without the Holy Spirit guiding us- it’s nearly impossible to love like that.
Second, it causes us to have a deeper, stronger relationship with our Savior. The stronger our relationship with our Lord, the less we are inclined to act out of selfishness and act out on how we feel or think. Having a deep commitment to obedience to Jesus- is the the key to a victorious Christian life.
Most definitely keeping you in prayer. As Galatians 2:20 says: My old self has been crucified with Christ It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.