Hellopeople, the scripture, be still and know that I am God, was set before me as I read your post.
Know that Jesus will keep care of you, making sure you do not wander far, also. as when I was your age,and I started wandering away.
God Our Father, did get my attention, and has kept it since.
For God chastises the ones He loves, hopefully you wont have to be chastised like I had to be, but know, He does love you and will make sure you remain His son in Jesus.
You are in my prayers for all that is the love and glory of God to shine in your life.
God bless
pickles