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I have never written in one of these threads before, but I figured no time like the present with all the stuff I am going through. Recently I have made some bad choices that I believe have effected others I love and I have been making these bad choices out of sheer pain... physical pain... I attend a program called cleansing streams with a group of women. Since I have started the class its been relentless attacks by the enemy, over and over from my health to my thoughts etc. I was raised in the word and I know I must rebuke the enemy but its like with these attacks came a trans over me like I didn't know what I was saying or doing.. I really never felt this out of control in pain before.. I have gone through a great deal of things and suffering for the Lord and I've learned to see that as a blessing as we all our persecuted for our King. What I guess I am in here asking prayer for is..well I am about to go on this retreat ....huge life changing retreat for cleansing streams as they would say . Its crazy how God provided for it too, I had not had money since I was so sick and in the hospital could not work. The ladies of cleansing streams donated money for me to go on this retreat and told me I had to put in my 25 dollars in faith, they asked if I had it I said no but I am not worried about it, I thought to myself I can get that.. should not be that hard right? Well my mother had given me 5 dollars earlier in the day and then my friend at cleansing streams came up to me and God said to give you 20 dollars she has no idea the leaders of cleansing streams told me to give 25... so God provided in that short amount of time... and then yes like I said Ive been in MASS amounts of pain.. pain like I have never experienced in my life and I would never want anyone to experience, its caused me to be kind of needy and super emotional and that upsets me cause I lost some good people over how much the pain has distorted my mind. Anywho so long story short 2 months of this pain lesions show up on my legs awful painful red ones so huge and painful I could barely wall. I get to the hospital he takes one look at my legs and says thats valley fever, I am thinking no way! I asked God to keep me from that so no way, this whole time I am kinda angry at Bakersfeild thinking it gave me VF but then after painful weeks and blood work being drawn.. results come back its lyme disease.... I am thinking to myself? I am originally from Ohio, I had to get it there ... there are no white tail deer here in Bakersfield where a tick could have bit me. So something I totally wanted to blame on this awful desert cause I get frustrated here sometimes I could not had to blame it on good ol' Ohio where I love and miss a lot. I love wherever I am cause God is with me and it is awesome. Another quick God story so I found out the medicine to get rid of this Lyme disease is 180 dollars I am thinking to myself oh my goodness I am extremely poor how am I gonna afford this, I wanted to shake my fist at the enemy yet I felt a strange peace about it all, I faithfully even though my joints where in so much pain and going out on me went to work and a workshop after work the only one at my workplace to attend like my boss asked. After the workshop I tell my boss how much my medicine is cause she asks.. she goes well I know you dont have insurance and I said yeah and she goes does your mom and I said no.. and we are so broke. She said you know what Cherish I am gonna pay for your medicine.. I looked at her in unbelief thinking is this the same lady? and cried I said you dont have to do that she said I want to I want you to get better and healthy. So yes God has even through the pain provided so much provision for me in the past not even full week cause he is good like that but I am writing this out in prayer request because I need prayer for the pain! I was up sobbing for so long cause of an absessed tooth and my wisdom teeth coming in plus such severe heart pain and my left arm numbing up and my body just so sore... lyme disease symptoms. Please just pray even though I walk through this trial and I will he would lessen the pain! Also cleansing streams retreat this weekend! Please pray that God would transform me completely, He would pull out the bad plants and seeds and replace them with good that generational curses would be broken, That self hatred would turn into self love through Jesus Christ that old habits would be exactly that old and dead .... and pray for all of us cause the enemy has been attacking all the women not just me... God is good I know he will provide, but if you my bros and sis in Christ could and would pray I truly appreciate it! If there is anything you all need prayer for I am here I love to pray. Godbless and thankyou
~Cherish
~Cherish
