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I know here goes this guy again. I know my brothers, oh what a crybaby I am. I know many have it far worse then me, oh how many judge and how many condemn. Oh how he loves the attention. Oh why does he not get it its so simple simple it is. Oh how he does not appreciate his blessings..
I know brothers here I go again. I don't expect much out of this site other then opinions, prayers and guidance and hopefully finally get closer to God.
But time to is eternal.. I day is but eternity to me. Oh I know something must be wrong with me. I cant deny that maybe there is.. so many things unsaid, and many things I have said but not clear.. I just feel so embarrass at time to share everything.. but there is things I have to open up about.
Oh how I don't get this life anymore and how everything seems so meaningless. I know im young I know im new to this ( but not to new ) I been struggling all for a few days and suicide on my mind.. I know im wrong and all that stops me is fear of hell.. but sometimes I want to let go cuz I dont care.. all I want is peace and love and I dont seem to get it from living life.. I dont its not enough.. nothing seems to be strong enough to keep me alive.. so selfish I may say so but I feel like that.. the pain in my heart, and mind and body overwhelmed I cant seem to focus, everything seems to fall down.. I believe I believe and I pray and I pray but I still dont feel anything anything.. then its my fault its my fault because I dont trust, I dont trust and I pray Oh Lord make me trust help me with my faith but life keeps bringing me down.. I dont think its fair.. I know I know why are you so down.. but non of you comprehend I just dont think life is worth lving anymore.. I pray, I pray I pray and beg of you I just dont feel good anymore I just dont know what to do anymore.. nothing in my life seems to work anymore.. I dont get it anymore.. Im crashing, and breaking down on this site omg how weak I must look to all of you.. I beg of you to pray to the Lord cuz I feel like everything is futile now..
I know brothers here I go again. I don't expect much out of this site other then opinions, prayers and guidance and hopefully finally get closer to God.
But time to is eternal.. I day is but eternity to me. Oh I know something must be wrong with me. I cant deny that maybe there is.. so many things unsaid, and many things I have said but not clear.. I just feel so embarrass at time to share everything.. but there is things I have to open up about.
Oh how I don't get this life anymore and how everything seems so meaningless. I know im young I know im new to this ( but not to new ) I been struggling all for a few days and suicide on my mind.. I know im wrong and all that stops me is fear of hell.. but sometimes I want to let go cuz I dont care.. all I want is peace and love and I dont seem to get it from living life.. I dont its not enough.. nothing seems to be strong enough to keep me alive.. so selfish I may say so but I feel like that.. the pain in my heart, and mind and body overwhelmed I cant seem to focus, everything seems to fall down.. I believe I believe and I pray and I pray but I still dont feel anything anything.. then its my fault its my fault because I dont trust, I dont trust and I pray Oh Lord make me trust help me with my faith but life keeps bringing me down.. I dont think its fair.. I know I know why are you so down.. but non of you comprehend I just dont think life is worth lving anymore.. I pray, I pray I pray and beg of you I just dont feel good anymore I just dont know what to do anymore.. nothing in my life seems to work anymore.. I dont get it anymore.. Im crashing, and breaking down on this site omg how weak I must look to all of you.. I beg of you to pray to the Lord cuz I feel like everything is futile now..