Really Needing Prayer!

Hi, I'm new to this site. I came here looking for a way to communicate with other people who believe in and try to live for God, like I do. There aren't many true Christians where I live. There are many people who believe in God, but they have not accepted Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior and they do not actually try to live a Godly, moral life. That's one reason why I'm reaching out for friendship and prayer this way... I recently gave my heart back to God (Jan. 1st, the exact date), and the devil has really been trying to bring me down ever since. The new year started off right and with great promise, but now it seems like so many things are going wrong in my life. I have so many things that I need prayer for that I don't even know where to start in listing them all, so I will just say that I need a few miracles to change my current situation and circumstances. Mostly, I need better health, a good companion, a better job and free from this overwhelming depression that I have suffered from since childhood. I'm tired of not feeling well, being lonely, struggling financially and feeling so sad, aggravated and worried because of my problems that I can't even think straight and make the right decisions. I'm having problems with anxiety attacks again now, which I thought that I had dealt with my anxiety issues years ago and that I was finally over them, but I'm now dealing with them again. I keep feeling like I'm a bad person who deserves the bad things that have been happening to me recently because I'm a failure to myself, my loved ones and most of all, God. No matter how hard I try, I just can't be what I feel like I need to be and do everything that I feel like I need to do. I have let God down so many times and so many ways that I feel like he doesn't even want to hear my prayers anymore. I feel like I have done something, though I'm not exactly sure what, that God just won't forgive me for and even if he did, I'm not worthy of another chance from him and I'd just let him down again anyway... I'm sorry for typing so much. I didn't mean to write a book. I just really needed to get some things off my chest and ask for prayer this morning. I really don't know what else to do at this point. Thank you in advance to whomever may pray for me. I truly appreciate it.

#1 stop cursing yourself, dont say your struggling finacially, you need a better health and etc stop putting curses upon yourself because you will suffer those things. Your not a failure if so we all are and Jesus wouldn't have died on the cross for our sins, he wouldnt be coming to earth! your complaining about a job think of the millions of people who lost their jobs, so appreciate that you have a job and dont take it for granted, by all means change jobs if you cant change your attitude and the way you think about it. you do not belong to satan you belong to the BLOOD OF JESUS so you need to speak it out loud GET THEE BEHIND ME DEVIL YOU BELONG TO THE BLOOD OF JESUS, jesus loves you, hes not going to love you less whatever you do hes an amazing man! ive had a terrible childhood, was molested for 12 years of my life, yes i was depressed, suicidal etc but i also had a choice to overcome it or live and grieve on my past which wont do you any good! no i serve the lord whole heartdly and my past is my foot stool because no weapons formed against me shall prosper! you are not alone the almighty God will never leave you nor forsake you! you are FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE, EVERYTHING YOU TOUCH WILL TURN INTO PROSPHETIC GOLD, YOUR THE HEAD AND NOT THE TAIL, THE FIRST AND THE LAST, it is written according to matthew 5:14 you are the light of the world so stop with the cursing yourself! thanx him for what he's done and what he's going to do, thank him for providing food and shelter for you because their are millions of people without, thanx him for your health because their are people who never made it to your age, and most of all TAME YOUR TONGUE! watch what you say! the tongue is the smallest member of your body but the hardest to control, stop pronouncing these demonic words over your life! shout out loud, speak it say THANK YOU JESUS FOR MEETING MY FINANICAL NEEDS, THANK YOU FOR MY HEALTH i have lupus but it sure doesnt have me, the blood of jesus has me. Keep trying and dont give up, he will answer your prayer you need to trust and believe him..

I have never cared for the term "to believe in God." I like it even less coming from anyone who claims to know and love Jesus Christ. Either we believe Him, or we do not. I believe God. It seems you do also. I pray God provide all necessary for you to continue and complete the way He has for you, in Jesus' name, amen.

I have prayed for you...
Here are some scriptures to memorize and quote daily.

Phil 4:6,7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus

2 Tim 1:7
For God did not give us a spirit of Fear, but a spirit of power, of love and of sound mind.