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choZn

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I havn't been on in awhile and feel unworthy to ask for prayer here. Truth is, I'm hanging on to faith by a thread. In the past year my daughter was admitted to a mental facility then later gave birth to a still-born baby near the end of her pregnancy. I didnt think her mental state could get worse. I was wrong. My company and job are insecure yet if I leave before my boss she will go under so I am stuck by matter of virtue. Medical bills are eating me alive, Im even being sued for one Ive never missed a payment on. Now Im scheduled for a female surgery this Friday the 28th to remove and diagnose a tumor. My dr. isnt sure what she will find or have to do when she goes in. I am facing 4-6 weeks of recovery. I am scared and I feel so alone. Technically,Im not. My husband is here. He seems to love me but after catching him with another man a few years back, I just cant feel the same. I have been an active, faithful christian all my life but lately not so much. I am both ashamed of how I feel and defiant. Where is God anyway? Hasnt he heard me at all? Why should I expect him to care about Friday? Somewhere inside of me I know these answers. I just cant make a connection. If you are in a place where you can and will, please remember me.
 
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Mike98

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I am praying for you, god bless you and merry christmas, hang in there and i am praying:) you are not alone, go talk to some people go to a prayer chat room here, and we will pray for you:)
 
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SPUZIT

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You're honest &open request emplores my heart to reach out to you the story I have chosen for my page name ... I spelled it wrong when signing on is should read Spuzt. It means to repair or to restore. How this was taught to me is this: I went to a "feild sale" known. here as a farmers market.shorten version is, a man had a lug of brused dropped & Musher pears pushed off to the side. Unsaleable some would say even pig food or ready for a compost pile. We bought that brused & " un-usable pears.... took them home & held them under running water, as we gently & softly rubbed at the brused & mushy parts of each pear.(fruit). The more time we spent caring for each pear the cleaner each pear got...until. we cleaned the pears..when we rubbished cleanning Athens lug (box) of pears ... we were able to can 12 jars of pears... once thought unwanted, brused ready to be given up on pears. Washed clean with patients & care. This in my family heritage is called spuzt...to prepared & to restore.. I pray that this is what will come of all your times of trials that sound so draining for you. May God walk beside you during your time of spuzt, both repairing & restoring you to the full glory of gods work he has made you for.. ...praying for you a sisters love.
 
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I am praying for you. Merry Christmas.....
 
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Evenios

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why the heck would you stay with a man who cheated on you? no offense.
 
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I am praying for you rigth now! Be blessed
 
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choZn said:
I havn't been on in awhile and feel unworthy to ask for prayer here. Truth is, I'm hanging on to faith by a thread. In the past year my daughter was admitted to a mental facility then later gave birth to a still-born baby near the end of her pregnancy. I didnt think her mental state could get worse. I was wrong. My company and job are insecure yet if I leave before my boss she will go under so I am stuck by matter of virtue. Medical bills are eating me alive, Im even being sued for one Ive never missed a payment on. Now Im scheduled for a female surgery this Friday the 28th to remove and diagnose a tumor. My dr. isnt sure what she will find or have to do when she goes in. I am facing 4-6 weeks of recovery. I am scared and I feel so alone. Technically,Im not. My husband is here. He seems to love me but after catching him with another man a few years back, I just cant feel the same. I have been an active, faithful christian all my life but lately not so much. I am both ashamed of how I feel and defiant. Where is God anyway? Hasnt he heard me at all? Why should I expect him to care about Friday? Somewhere inside of me I know these answers. I just cant make a connection. If you are in a place where you can and will, please remember me.
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Dear Sister in Christ Jesus, No one should ever feel unworthy to request prayers! No one. God would be the first to tell you that. When one comes with contrite heart God stands always ready to listen.

I know you need prayer for all that you state you are undergoing right now. I pray that all goes well with your surgery and that God blesses you with good health! As for your husband, one should leave matters of the past in the past, imho, if there has been true reform in your marriage.

You ask where is God? God is right there in your heart. He has never left you! And yes, He has heard you but have you approached Him and talked to Him in the right manner so that He could properly acknowledge you?

Why should you expect Him to care about your upcoming surgery you ask? Because He is your Heavenly Father and as such He very much cares! He would never leave you alone in this and also because He is the Majestic Healer from Heaven. But you must turn to Him in full Faith and request that He be with your doctor and you and that all will be well. Since you appear to be undergoing a difficult time in your life right now, these types of concerns and problems can and will manifest. But they do for a reason, for a purpose. That is so that your Faith in God through Jesus Christ can become Stronger! Sometimes we just expect too much out of God without showing Him that we are truly worthy of His Divine mercy and interaction upon our concerns. When He sees that we are gravitating away from Him through our thoughts, words and actions, things can start to happen where the only way out will be to turn full-face to Him and ask for relief to ameliorate the problems in our life.

I will certainly offer prayer for you, dear Sister. God stands ready to listen to those who ask and all I would say to you is do not lose your Faith in Him! He has never denied you another day of life or His many blessings has He? Therefore, each day you wake up and find yourself Alive is yet another day to give thanks and praise to God through His beloved Son Jesus. When He sees your faith rekindled and gravitating back towards Him instead of away from Him with questions such as what you have presented, He will surely act upon your requests and you would have made the right choice by returning your faith and belief in that it is only He who can turn your life around for the better!

May God Bless You and I pray that your health will be back to normal with no further worries or concerns and that your employment and financial situation be also healed.
 
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Praying for you and your daughter in Jesus Christ is Lord.
Jesus has never left you, remember, faith is not about seeing to believe, but in faith knowing Jesus is with you and caring for you.
It is when we do this, that our flsh is set aside and we know how much He is already caring for us.
Ill be praying also friday for your surgury.

Hugs and God bless
pickles
 
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DenR

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actually that audio is hopeless..oops
:(
 
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psychomom

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choZn said:
I havn't been on in awhile and feel unworthy to ask for prayer here. Truth is, I'm hanging on to faith by a thread. In the past year my daughter was admitted to a mental facility then later gave birth to a still-born baby near the end of her pregnancy. I didnt think her mental state could get worse. I was wrong. My company and job are insecure yet if I leave before my boss she will go under so I am stuck by matter of virtue. Medical bills are eating me alive, Im even being sued for one Ive never missed a payment on. Now Im scheduled for a female surgery this Friday the 28th to remove and diagnose a tumor. My dr. isnt sure what she will find or have to do when she goes in. I am facing 4-6 weeks of recovery. I am scared and I feel so alone. Technically,Im not. My husband is here. He seems to love me but after catching him with another man a few years back, I just cant feel the same. I have been an active, faithful christian all my life but lately not so much. I am both ashamed of how I feel and defiant. Where is God anyway? Hasnt he heard me at all? Why should I expect him to care about Friday? Somewhere inside of me I know these answers. I just cant make a connection. If you are in a place where you can and will, please remember me.
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None of us is 'worthy', beloved of your Father.
Yet, each of us is, because of Jesus. ♥
You have the righteousness of Jesus, because He chose you, and He saved you, and He sanctifies you.

You are going though some very trying times (to put it mildly!) and for that I am so sorry. :(
I know that feeling...wondering if God is on vacation and not having His calls forwarded? :rolleyes:

No need to feel shame...and put aside the defiance. (which I also remember...:) )
See!...how He is pouring grace out onto you?
He moved you with His own love for you to think these things, and acknowledge them, and come here to seek help (prayer).
He is drawing you...can you feel it? :)
He is motivating you to return to Him so you can be a 'pear', and have the Living Water wash you all clean and shiny.
We are all 'prodigals' at some point in life, and if you're like me, you may be more than once. But just like the father in Luke 15, your Father sees you far off, and runs to you.
He takes you in His arms and holds you close and He actually honors you...putting a ring on your finger (a seal...a Promise ♥) and holding a banquet for you.
(even if, Like Paslm 23, it's in the presence of your enemies)

Don't think for one minute He's not attending that banquet, dear one.
He said He would never, no never, no never leave you or forsake you. (Heb. 13:5)

You know what to do. :)
Seek the Lord in the Word, in prayer.
He's never left you.
He loves you too much.
He's taking your calls. ;)

You and your family ('specially your daughter ♥) are very much in my prayers.
Please come back often.
We love you, too.
-ellie
 
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psychomom

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SPUZIT said:
You're honest &open request emplores my heart to reach out to you the story I have chosen for my page name ... I spelled it wrong when signing on is should read Spuzt. It means to repair or to restore. How this was taught to me is this: I went to a "feild sale" known. here as a farmers market.shorten version is, a man had a lug of brused dropped & Musher pears pushed off to the side. Unsaleable some would say even pig food or ready for a compost pile. We bought that brused & " un-usable pears.... took them home & held them under running water, as we gently & softly rubbed at the brused & mushy parts of each pear.(fruit). The more time we spent caring for each pear the cleaner each pear got...until. we cleaned the pears..when we rubbished cleanning Athens lug (box) of pears ... we were able to can 12 jars of pears... once thought unwanted, brused ready to be given up on pears. Washed clean with patients & care. This in my family heritage is called spuzt...to prepared & to restore.. I pray that this is what will come of all your times of trials that sound so draining for you. May God walk beside you during your time of spuzt, both repairing & restoring you to the full glory of gods work he has made you for.. ...praying for you a sisters love.
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That is just so honest...and so beautiful.
I'm going to remember this. :)
 
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simplyme_bekah

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Wow, God must think you are one amazing soul!!! I can't remember where I read it in the bible that he gives his strongest warriors the hardest battles. You are never alone ever. If you have asked God into your heart to be your personal savior then he is exactly that. Turn your face up to him in complete trust. Don't stop praying. Thank him for these hard times and have faith and so much hope that he can and will bring his will and his lessons and his beauty to every situation that you find yourself in. I would so love to pray for you. Do you have a first name?
 
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choZn said:
I havn't been on in awhile and feel unworthy to ask for prayer here. Truth is, I'm hanging on to faith by a thread. In the past year my daughter was admitted to a mental facility then later gave birth to a still-born baby near the end of her pregnancy. I didnt think her mental state could get worse. I was wrong. My company and job are insecure yet if I leave before my boss she will go under so I am stuck by matter of virtue. Medical bills are eating me alive, Im even being sued for one Ive never missed a payment on. Now Im scheduled for a female surgery this Friday the 28th to remove and diagnose a tumor. My dr. isnt sure what she will find or have to do when she goes in. I am facing 4-6 weeks of recovery. I am scared and I feel so alone. Technically,Im not. My husband is here. He seems to love me but after catching him with another man a few years back, I just cant feel the same. I have been an active, faithful christian all my life but lately not so much. I am both ashamed of how I feel and defiant. Where is God anyway? Hasnt he heard me at all? Why should I expect him to care about Friday? Somewhere inside of me I know these answers. I just cant make a connection. If you are in a place where you can and will, please remember me.
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Draw near to God, you are in great despair but fret not the Lord will give you all the strength to make it through your storms, He never promised to take away out storms but did promise to be sufficient to get us through them, some days it seems nothing is going to happen and all will fall apart, but we need to remember God looks at the heart, and is no respecter of persons, His main concern which we all have forgotten is that God is more concerned how we go through our storms and glorify His Holy name, some give up and hit the booze or drugs, some seek immoral relationships, some overeat, and some will depart from God blaming Him for not helping then.
But He wants none to perish, you must come to repentance and brokenness, you may be there, I don't know your heart, but He may be breaking you to get you to come broken before His great mercy seat, repent, and stop any vile sins you may have against Him.

God is more concerned with our character than our comfort, I went through a similar situation several years ago, was a lukewarm Christian, just about lost it all, was led by the spirit into godly sorrow and repentance, broken, assuming nothing from God, I would cry out to Him to see if it was in His will to bring a Litte light into my miserable circumstances, and He did, but not what I expected, but I did my part in repentance, clearing my life and heart of all idolatry and wickedness, and false teachings that were keeping me in great bondage to worry, fear, doubt, and blaming God for my miserable situation!

So repent, seek His great mercy, even if you loose it all, He wants your heart cleared and pure first, then He will give you all you need in Him, which could only mean food and the clothing you need, but as you grow in real Faith and obedience, you will become a strong warrior for truth, but not well liked, you will be unpopular, and hated and despised by the worldly church people who are wallowing in their sins, then blaming God for their miserable situations.

I know this message seems harsh, I cannot sugar coat the true gospel message, many Will hate me, but I say please seek God and His word, don't hate the messenger, as I am just giving you what the Lord is teaching me as to life, salvation, and what is truly important to Him, and not us!

Jas 4:7 Therefore submit yourselves to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
Jas 4:8 Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, sinners; and purify your hearts, double-minded ones.
Jas 4:9 Be afflicted, and mourn and weep. Let your laughter be turned to mourning and your joy to heaviness.
Jas 4:10 Be humbled before the Lord, and He will lift you up.
 
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Indubitably

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You have a lot of prayer going up for you now. I've seen some real miracles recently through the power of such prayer, including in my own life. Be encouraged. I too, will pray!

God loves you.. you're in good hands!

A little reminder from simplyme_bekah...

 
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choZn

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Thanks so much to all of you for your prayers and support. The encouragement is so very appreciated and just what I needed tonight. Earlier today my surgeon decided to send me back to my primary dr. to check other existing concerns. I have symptoms of MS or a muscle disease of some sort. This could delay surgery. I wont know until tomorrow so Im sticking to this two day liquid diet just in case. Your prayers are lifting me up as I go through this trying and uncertain time. I will read them over and over. Many thanks and blessings to you all.
 
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Father thank you for healing for her and her daughter and thank you for hearing this prayer in Jesus name
 
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Dear Lord, I lift my precious sister in Christ up to you and ask that you would heal her wounds and guide her into all TRUTH!

In Your word you tell us that you will never leave us nor forsake us (Hebrews 13:5), so we ask Lord that you would surround your daughter with your angels of love and mercy, show her your love right now so she will know that you are NEAR. Let her know that you will provide for all her needs, as she trusts in you.

We will give you all the honor and glory for the TESTIMONY that will come out of this trial. In Jesus Name. Amen.

Blessings!

~Tiffany
 
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I will remember you in my prayers. I hope that all goes well for you, just stay strong and remember him always.
 
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shekaniah

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The love of Jesus in this place is alive!

Sorry I'm late...
but I want you to know i'm sending up prayers for you and your daughter.
Love in Jesus, Shekaniah
 
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