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Hello, everyone!
Such a blessing to fellowship with a community of Christians here! I'm so very grateful to be family in Christ with all of you, so if ever there's anything I can do for you, do let me know! I'd be so happy to help.
I feel just terrible expressing any sort of complaints when I look at the incredible gifts that God has bestowed upon me, but for some reason, I am really struggling to come to terms with some of the hardships- however temporary they may be- that I'm encountering in my pursuit of the Lord's plan for me.
I am a twenty-year-old girl whom God has blessed with the opportunity to attend one of the very best colleges in America. The school that I attend is very far from home- I'm from the rural South, and my university is in the Northeast- and it is so difficult to live in a place where my values and beliefs are continually under attack. It seems, oftentimes, that there is no place on campus for a Baptist young lady who does not drink, does not party, is practicing sexual abstinence until marriage, and dreams, above all, of being a wife and a mother as the Bible has called me to do. Even in the presence of people whom I befriend, I always feel so very alone. I know that the Lord is always with me, of course, but it does become wearing to feel without companionship or support from your peers as you go along in your walk with the Lord.
I came home from my first year feeling lost. My experience was not at all what I had expected it to be, and I felt such great confusion as to God's intent for me that I actually took a year's leave in attempt to sort things out, and have prayed continually since that time that the Lord will show me how I ought to proceed from here. He has given me confirmation, in every imaginable fashion, that it is His will for me to complete my education at my current university, and I have acted accordingly, and enrolled for intercession courses to start making up for lost time right away.
I know in my heart that I must follow His call, and feel sure that I am doing the right thing, but oh! I am frightened, and dreading my return there. I do not want to disappoint or fail my Lord after He's given me so much, but the two years (counting summers) that stand between now and the time that I can return home to my community seem so daunting. I know how very selfish this all must seem, but if you all would be so kind as to offer a prayer up on my behalf, asking the Lord to help me overcome my ingratitude and my lack of faith, and to find the happiness in abiding in Him, and working to fulfill His purpose that I need to thrive there, I'd be most appreciative. I leave in a week to return to school, and it would give me great comfort to know that I had a few extra prayers accompanying me!
Thank you all so much, and God bless!
Scarlett
Such a blessing to fellowship with a community of Christians here! I'm so very grateful to be family in Christ with all of you, so if ever there's anything I can do for you, do let me know! I'd be so happy to help.
I feel just terrible expressing any sort of complaints when I look at the incredible gifts that God has bestowed upon me, but for some reason, I am really struggling to come to terms with some of the hardships- however temporary they may be- that I'm encountering in my pursuit of the Lord's plan for me.
I am a twenty-year-old girl whom God has blessed with the opportunity to attend one of the very best colleges in America. The school that I attend is very far from home- I'm from the rural South, and my university is in the Northeast- and it is so difficult to live in a place where my values and beliefs are continually under attack. It seems, oftentimes, that there is no place on campus for a Baptist young lady who does not drink, does not party, is practicing sexual abstinence until marriage, and dreams, above all, of being a wife and a mother as the Bible has called me to do. Even in the presence of people whom I befriend, I always feel so very alone. I know that the Lord is always with me, of course, but it does become wearing to feel without companionship or support from your peers as you go along in your walk with the Lord.
I came home from my first year feeling lost. My experience was not at all what I had expected it to be, and I felt such great confusion as to God's intent for me that I actually took a year's leave in attempt to sort things out, and have prayed continually since that time that the Lord will show me how I ought to proceed from here. He has given me confirmation, in every imaginable fashion, that it is His will for me to complete my education at my current university, and I have acted accordingly, and enrolled for intercession courses to start making up for lost time right away.
I know in my heart that I must follow His call, and feel sure that I am doing the right thing, but oh! I am frightened, and dreading my return there. I do not want to disappoint or fail my Lord after He's given me so much, but the two years (counting summers) that stand between now and the time that I can return home to my community seem so daunting. I know how very selfish this all must seem, but if you all would be so kind as to offer a prayer up on my behalf, asking the Lord to help me overcome my ingratitude and my lack of faith, and to find the happiness in abiding in Him, and working to fulfill His purpose that I need to thrive there, I'd be most appreciative. I leave in a week to return to school, and it would give me great comfort to know that I had a few extra prayers accompanying me!
Thank you all so much, and God bless!
Scarlett
