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My open letter to God
May 6, 2010
Dear God,
A few days have passed and I just wanted to know why you took our Dad away…
Why?
Why is it that of all the people in the whole wide world, why him? He is a great man. A man who stood up for his beliefs even if his friends kept on calling him to drink and be merry. Even if some of our relatives chastise us for being Christians. His faith never wavered. He held on to what is right. And yet, He is still gone.
In my heart, I know that you love us dearly, and Lord, I love you too. It’s just that it’s too hard to know love when one is in pain. When your whole world is spinning and everything else is tumbling down, and all you want to do is stand still. You listen and try to hear the beating of your own heart, to hear the rhythmic thump just to know you’re still alive. But all I hear is silence, Lord... Nothing.
Tell me Lord, am I still alive?
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August 1, 2011
Thank you Lord, I am still alive.
Thank you because a year has passed and slowly, our life is better than what it was before. Though the pain still remains, it is more bearable now.
Thank you Lord, because this year---I learned how to clean the aircon, how to change the bulb, how to repair things in the house and how to drive. Things I never knew I could do. Things that my Dad always did, things I took for granted.
Thank you Lord, because my Mom, dependent as she was on Dad, learned how to be more independent. She can now go out of the house unaccompanied, do transactions and complete them on her own, all the things she used to rely on Dad, she can now do seamlessly. She is stronger and more decisive, something she thought she never could be a year ago.
Thank you Lord, because my Mom, my sisters and I, grew to love each other deeper than it was before. We discover new things about each other, things we didnt bother learning before. We care not because we are related, we care because we are a family and there is a deeper connection bonding us all together.
Thank you Lord,because despite the hurt still lingering in our hearts, we know that what lies in the future isnt so bleak after all. We just have to learn how to trust, in things we cannot see and in things we dont understand.
May 6, 2010
Dear God,
A few days have passed and I just wanted to know why you took our Dad away…
Why?
Why is it that of all the people in the whole wide world, why him? He is a great man. A man who stood up for his beliefs even if his friends kept on calling him to drink and be merry. Even if some of our relatives chastise us for being Christians. His faith never wavered. He held on to what is right. And yet, He is still gone.
In my heart, I know that you love us dearly, and Lord, I love you too. It’s just that it’s too hard to know love when one is in pain. When your whole world is spinning and everything else is tumbling down, and all you want to do is stand still. You listen and try to hear the beating of your own heart, to hear the rhythmic thump just to know you’re still alive. But all I hear is silence, Lord... Nothing.
Tell me Lord, am I still alive?
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August 1, 2011
Thank you Lord, I am still alive.
Thank you because a year has passed and slowly, our life is better than what it was before. Though the pain still remains, it is more bearable now.
Thank you Lord, because this year---I learned how to clean the aircon, how to change the bulb, how to repair things in the house and how to drive. Things I never knew I could do. Things that my Dad always did, things I took for granted.
Thank you Lord, because my Mom, dependent as she was on Dad, learned how to be more independent. She can now go out of the house unaccompanied, do transactions and complete them on her own, all the things she used to rely on Dad, she can now do seamlessly. She is stronger and more decisive, something she thought she never could be a year ago.
Thank you Lord, because my Mom, my sisters and I, grew to love each other deeper than it was before. We discover new things about each other, things we didnt bother learning before. We care not because we are related, we care because we are a family and there is a deeper connection bonding us all together.
Thank you Lord,because despite the hurt still lingering in our hearts, we know that what lies in the future isnt so bleak after all. We just have to learn how to trust, in things we cannot see and in things we dont understand.