A Subtle Reminder.

So this is a long story... I'll start by saying that I am a born again Christian. I struggle with a few things but the scariest thing I struggle with is doubtful and sexually immoral thoughts. I think sometimes "Am I really saved?" I keep on thinking and I keep thinking these things and I can't stop. I repent but then think the same thoughts the next day. "What if that means that the Holy Spirit isn't in me? Did Jesus REALLY come into my heart?" Then I get anxiety and I feel disconnected to God and I feel like I'm slippin away. It's just really scary. Cause you feel like you should have assurance that you are 100% saved. But when you have doubts it messes with your mind.
Well one night I was watching The 700 Club and Pat and Terry were praying and they said "Someone who has alot of fear and anxiety. You're being delivered." And i knew it was for me and I felt so amazing I felt peaceful and joyful and I knew I was delivered. And later that night I was talking with My Friend. (He had no idea about the 700 club thing) and he said read Isaiah 41:10. And it said "Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and heal you. I will hold you up with My Victorious Right Hand." I knew it was God reaching out to Me and validating my experience. PRAISE GOD.
But wait, a few days later the thoughts got worse than ever. I constantly questioning if I was saved. I looked online for answers and was comforted for a few hours but nothing that lasted. I finally prayed for God to take away these sexually immoral thoughts and the doubtt and help to stop focusing on my works instead of my relationship with Jesus. It seemed like God and I were drifting apart more and more. I was completely terrified.
So last night and today I prayed and said to God that I was confused and I needed help I didn't know what to do or say and I repented of my sins that I felt convicted of and said I give these things to and I'm gonna rely on you and not my own understanding. I'm gonna trust you well try my best to anyways.
25 minutes ago I decided to browse christian sites and I looked at one and normally I wouldn't click on it but this time I did. I went to the evening meditation section and at the bottom of the page it read,
"Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not
dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen
thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold
thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
They shall fight against thee; but they shall
not prevail against thee; for I am with thee,
saith the Lord, to deliver thee." Which is Isaiah 41:10. Now I know God is truly with me. I have that warm feeling in me. God cares about His Children more than we can ever imagine. Sometimes God shows His Glory in subtle ways. This I know, was A Subtle Reminder that I'm saved and I am Loved by none other than My Almighty Father, God Himself.

Just be careful, in the words of Paul Washer "I have never seen a man fall from God, I have only seen men slip away from God."

I think putting a prayer in the prayer request forum would be wise. And take things 1 step at a time... Instead of looking at it and going, I have to go a week without this or that. Just deal with the issues on a step by step basis... When an issue comes up in my life, I remind myself the pain and guilt I felt afterwards, and remind myself that it never satisfies me at all...

A lot of people our age struggle with this stuff, but it's like when your driving... If you focus on the lines that separate the road, you will drift over and cross them. But if you ignore the lines, and pick a spot ahead and just focus on that, you drive a perfect line...

Just focus on Christ. Btw, God is more than awesome for helping you in this way, by sending people to council you such as your friend. Don't ever let that become distant and loose it's flavor... That is an awesome story that can encourage you forever.

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Paul said in Rom. 7 that "In my flesh dwells no good thing" - meaning of course that there was lots of evil in him. But, he goes on to say that in Christ we have every spiritual good. And there will always be a struggle between the two. Always.

But if we walk in the Spirit, we will not give in to the evil that dwells in our flesh. Walking in the Spirit is that taking in of His word and His presence daily. And abiding in His love.

I went to my churches monthly men's night and my pastor talked about this very topic. This is an issue I've struggled with as well. I pray that God gives you the strength to keep your thoughts and your actions pleasing to him. Remember there is power in the name of Jesus.

Hey everyone. I just wanna thank you for the wonderful replies. It means alot to me. I appreciate it. I agree with all of you, and I never really acknowledged this problem was so severe. My mother used to struggle with these problems and still does somewhat but I used to think how could she think that God wouldn't forgive her and that she couldn't be saved? But when those thoughts start popping up in your head like Ad's on the internet it's scary. Especially because satan uses or doubts against us and tries to make us feel isolated. But we're not God is everywhere. I really wish I could punch satan in the face sometimes. But praise God that we have His word and that He helps us all.
My mom and I were talking last night and she said do you ever feel like God is too good to you? And I'm like Yes that's so true.! Alot of us feel this way because we don't comprehend how Merciful and Loving Our God actually is.

any thing can become a drug, or a lust,,,, T V , car,............. the problem is that a idle mind is Satans workshop. so I suggest that you start a bible study and get involve in one. Keep your shield up for several months until you can ward off any suggestive input ........ and ask for prayer in Jesus Name.