I suppose this would fall under ""testimony" even a sort of "revelation" as well, God has been working on me for about 2-3 days or so, maybe a little longer, anyways...I starting writing things down. Here's what happened/what I wrote down. Oh and a fair warning, be prepared to read a good bit lol. God bless.
Have I been wrong all along, did I have bitterness and resentment in my heart, but I just didn't know because mentally I blocked it out?I didn't know, I didn't realize, but now my eyes and heart have been opened wide. I was wrong, I only hurt you and myself, I'm sorry for the way I wronged you, I'm sorry that my heart wasn't fully where I thought it ws, or where it should have been this whole time. I know, two wrongs don't make a right. I never intended on what ended up happening, I should have delt with things, in a different manner, but now I know, better. Life hasn't been easy for either of us by any means, for many, different reasons. However, now I know one reason for me, is due to my own feelings and things I never even took note on, until now.
Now that I have noticed, and taken grasp of the concept of what hs been wrong all my life, I can work on changing it for the better. I can now go full steam ahead, with a passion, as I try to do with everything. I find myself at a standstill of being in total awe of God. The love, mercy, grace, compassion, convicting me, etc. I never could have made it on my own, nor could I have noticed things on my own. It's both truly amazing and mind boggeling at the revelations God lays on one's heart...about their own life at that. Not to mention warnings as well. It's all part of His majestic, myserious ways I do suppose... ways in which He doesn't want to keep from us, but rather, to draw us into...a sacred, secretive place...one just for Him and His child to be...yes to be one.
A holy...peaceful place...where you reflect upon things, and where you...can just...indeed...be still...and know YES HE IS GOD. This also remins me of a song, I'm a woman of my own convictions, and the song says a man of my own convictions. At any rate however, the point is very clear. As is everything of and about God, things have been made so clear and real. So...radically that it requires full focus and attention. So strongly, it can no longer be ignored. I'm at this point, that takes me back to six years ago, when I accepted Christ. I say this because once again, I can feel and hear Him calling me. This time He's telling me the following:
"Come to Me My child, I have shown thee thy wrongs, out of love. Make right of thy wrongs, and be ye not ashamed of feel guilt any longer. I know ye seek and desire My love, comfort, peace, and compassion. Here am I, and I shall show Myself to thee more and more. Be not dismayed, for things have taken a turn for the better staring now."
Now all I can do is listen, continue in prayer, reading His word, seekin His face, staying humble, and be a woman after God's own heart. I can't even begin to put into words what I feel...All I can do is just remain in total awe and admiration of the Lord, and give HIM all the htanks, praise, honor, and glory for everything. As I pour out every single thought, feeling, care, concern, worry, fear, peace, blessin, my heart, mind, soul, spirit, every single part of and thing about me, to the very frist and last, single micro-fiber of my being.
Have I been wrong all along, did I have bitterness and resentment in my heart, but I just didn't know because mentally I blocked it out?I didn't know, I didn't realize, but now my eyes and heart have been opened wide. I was wrong, I only hurt you and myself, I'm sorry for the way I wronged you, I'm sorry that my heart wasn't fully where I thought it ws, or where it should have been this whole time. I know, two wrongs don't make a right. I never intended on what ended up happening, I should have delt with things, in a different manner, but now I know, better. Life hasn't been easy for either of us by any means, for many, different reasons. However, now I know one reason for me, is due to my own feelings and things I never even took note on, until now.
Now that I have noticed, and taken grasp of the concept of what hs been wrong all my life, I can work on changing it for the better. I can now go full steam ahead, with a passion, as I try to do with everything. I find myself at a standstill of being in total awe of God. The love, mercy, grace, compassion, convicting me, etc. I never could have made it on my own, nor could I have noticed things on my own. It's both truly amazing and mind boggeling at the revelations God lays on one's heart...about their own life at that. Not to mention warnings as well. It's all part of His majestic, myserious ways I do suppose... ways in which He doesn't want to keep from us, but rather, to draw us into...a sacred, secretive place...one just for Him and His child to be...yes to be one.
A holy...peaceful place...where you reflect upon things, and where you...can just...indeed...be still...and know YES HE IS GOD. This also remins me of a song, I'm a woman of my own convictions, and the song says a man of my own convictions. At any rate however, the point is very clear. As is everything of and about God, things have been made so clear and real. So...radically that it requires full focus and attention. So strongly, it can no longer be ignored. I'm at this point, that takes me back to six years ago, when I accepted Christ. I say this because once again, I can feel and hear Him calling me. This time He's telling me the following:
"Come to Me My child, I have shown thee thy wrongs, out of love. Make right of thy wrongs, and be ye not ashamed of feel guilt any longer. I know ye seek and desire My love, comfort, peace, and compassion. Here am I, and I shall show Myself to thee more and more. Be not dismayed, for things have taken a turn for the better staring now."
Now all I can do is listen, continue in prayer, reading His word, seekin His face, staying humble, and be a woman after God's own heart. I can't even begin to put into words what I feel...All I can do is just remain in total awe and admiration of the Lord, and give HIM all the htanks, praise, honor, and glory for everything. As I pour out every single thought, feeling, care, concern, worry, fear, peace, blessin, my heart, mind, soul, spirit, every single part of and thing about me, to the very frist and last, single micro-fiber of my being.
& I pray that God continues blessing your life.