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This is from my hello letter though I thought it would have a more appropriate home here=)
Hello everyone glad to have joined=)...My names Alex from Orlando, FL. Ive been a Christian sice I was 11 but more then because of my parents not by personal choice as all things related to God back then I didnt really understand. Ive always been been the type of person thats very logical and I guess what you'd call more on the scientific side of things. Until recently I was always one to say that I cant prove God doesnt excist but you cant prove he does. I never doubted him to the point where I fully denied his excistance I just felt I had to leave myself open t the posibility that he wasnt the only answer.To this day I still seek alot of answers and I question God more than I should as I think maybe that shows lack of faith in some way. So to get to the point of why I am here and to this little story. Ive been married 10 years my wife in 11 weeks pregnant, we both work full time jobs and make enough to make ends meet, some months better than others. During the last few month it really has been a rollercoaster ride of problems that have pilled so high I cant even see anything pasted them. Just so many things have happened and still are that I got to a point I never really been to. I utterly felt like I had no way of making things better or getting even close to doing so. About two weeks ago I started feeling sick, I felt Like your body does when you have a high fever though I didnt have one. My body was sore and hurting from my feet to my head. This was really strange to me because im acually not one to get sick. I acually have a very strong immune system and am not used to aches and pains. So you can see this was out of the ordinary for me. So I delt with this for a few days , took some asprin and tylenol the generic stuff people take nothing worked, I had no clue what the heck was going on. When I woke up everyday I literaly felt like I have bags of sand holding my body down that I had to wake myself up and hour early just to give me enough time to get out of bed. At this point I started getting scared I mean this just didnt seem normal. So I started looking into all different kind of possibilities and of course my symptoms matched like a million and one things so hear I am freaking out even more. Going one just over a week I said to my wife if this doesnt get better in a few days Ill go to the doctor which she had been telling me to do so since the begining. Now here i am almost two weeks and not getting any better its 1am and I have to work the next day so im already miserable because I know im not gonna get any sleep and this show come on the History channel about the Ark of the Covenant. Me being a huge Indiana Jones fan I watched it all. That night as im gonna go to bed for some reason decided to download the bible to my iphone, yes I dont own a bible I know thats a bit sad. And started to read, and as usual I for some reason read certain thing from the end so I started with revalation. Reading I feel asleep woke up the same tired hunrting and went to work. While I work I text my wife and finally say okay tonight I want to go to the doctor I cant take feeling like this. My wife very angry said shed come pick me up that moment and take me, I said no and she hung up. I was so angry and felt so alone I didnt know what to do so I preyed. Thats something I never do but I did. This is what I said and please keep an open mind as you read my preyer I am not trying to insult or hurt anyones feeling or beliefs. I said to God. Please please please, for once in my life and in your excistancegive me a sign that your here, Im so very tired and I dont have time for FAITH all I want you to do is just tell me your here and i swear on my unborn child I will open my heart to you lord, but lord and im so sorry but if you dont then by the same oath I just gave you I will forever turn my back and suffer your wrath if that is what must be. I said alot more but Id rather keep some to myself. What happend next is one of the most amazing thing I have ever felt and experianced. Not one minute after this, I get a text from my wife saying how sorry she is. I stand up and my body feels so good my head becomes clear and my mood feels like I just won the lottery. I got really hungry which was wierd because ive had no apatite the whole week. I didnt phase me at first what had happened then I realized, Oh my god someone was listening to me from that point till today things have gotten better I feel better I have the strenght to put things in perspective and am working on alot of problems I just didnt have the strenght for before. Such wieght was lift from my chest and I felt a peace I never felt before, I feel safe like Im taken care of. Theres no coincidence that could ever explain such a change of events. So from that day forth I opened my heart to Jesus and God and though I still question many things I now have a father to seek the answers from. Im sorry for such a lenghty "HELLO" but I needed to share this with others who believe.
Hello everyone glad to have joined=)...My names Alex from Orlando, FL. Ive been a Christian sice I was 11 but more then because of my parents not by personal choice as all things related to God back then I didnt really understand. Ive always been been the type of person thats very logical and I guess what you'd call more on the scientific side of things. Until recently I was always one to say that I cant prove God doesnt excist but you cant prove he does. I never doubted him to the point where I fully denied his excistance I just felt I had to leave myself open t the posibility that he wasnt the only answer.To this day I still seek alot of answers and I question God more than I should as I think maybe that shows lack of faith in some way. So to get to the point of why I am here and to this little story. Ive been married 10 years my wife in 11 weeks pregnant, we both work full time jobs and make enough to make ends meet, some months better than others. During the last few month it really has been a rollercoaster ride of problems that have pilled so high I cant even see anything pasted them. Just so many things have happened and still are that I got to a point I never really been to. I utterly felt like I had no way of making things better or getting even close to doing so. About two weeks ago I started feeling sick, I felt Like your body does when you have a high fever though I didnt have one. My body was sore and hurting from my feet to my head. This was really strange to me because im acually not one to get sick. I acually have a very strong immune system and am not used to aches and pains. So you can see this was out of the ordinary for me. So I delt with this for a few days , took some asprin and tylenol the generic stuff people take nothing worked, I had no clue what the heck was going on. When I woke up everyday I literaly felt like I have bags of sand holding my body down that I had to wake myself up and hour early just to give me enough time to get out of bed. At this point I started getting scared I mean this just didnt seem normal. So I started looking into all different kind of possibilities and of course my symptoms matched like a million and one things so hear I am freaking out even more. Going one just over a week I said to my wife if this doesnt get better in a few days Ill go to the doctor which she had been telling me to do so since the begining. Now here i am almost two weeks and not getting any better its 1am and I have to work the next day so im already miserable because I know im not gonna get any sleep and this show come on the History channel about the Ark of the Covenant. Me being a huge Indiana Jones fan I watched it all. That night as im gonna go to bed for some reason decided to download the bible to my iphone, yes I dont own a bible I know thats a bit sad. And started to read, and as usual I for some reason read certain thing from the end so I started with revalation. Reading I feel asleep woke up the same tired hunrting and went to work. While I work I text my wife and finally say okay tonight I want to go to the doctor I cant take feeling like this. My wife very angry said shed come pick me up that moment and take me, I said no and she hung up. I was so angry and felt so alone I didnt know what to do so I preyed. Thats something I never do but I did. This is what I said and please keep an open mind as you read my preyer I am not trying to insult or hurt anyones feeling or beliefs. I said to God. Please please please, for once in my life and in your excistancegive me a sign that your here, Im so very tired and I dont have time for FAITH all I want you to do is just tell me your here and i swear on my unborn child I will open my heart to you lord, but lord and im so sorry but if you dont then by the same oath I just gave you I will forever turn my back and suffer your wrath if that is what must be. I said alot more but Id rather keep some to myself. What happend next is one of the most amazing thing I have ever felt and experianced. Not one minute after this, I get a text from my wife saying how sorry she is. I stand up and my body feels so good my head becomes clear and my mood feels like I just won the lottery. I got really hungry which was wierd because ive had no apatite the whole week. I didnt phase me at first what had happened then I realized, Oh my god someone was listening to me from that point till today things have gotten better I feel better I have the strenght to put things in perspective and am working on alot of problems I just didnt have the strenght for before. Such wieght was lift from my chest and I felt a peace I never felt before, I feel safe like Im taken care of. Theres no coincidence that could ever explain such a change of events. So from that day forth I opened my heart to Jesus and God and though I still question many things I now have a father to seek the answers from. Im sorry for such a lenghty "HELLO" but I needed to share this with others who believe.