I read your testimony as well brother.It does take time,and effort and discipline to stay in the Word of God,in order to believe, have confidence in, yes be established through,and always remember Jesus has, and will always LOVE YOU! Our reward is peace through both his Word, and his most wonderful name!( phil 4:4-9!!!) In every single area of our life,it all begins in our mindset!( rom 12:2) For the Word( our Jesus) heals first there,then the rest of the body. In my case, my tongue was the next part of my healing through Jesus.
For even as God's word never returns to him void,( Isaiah 55:11)neither do our words!You cannot take back your words to someone after you have spoke them,and i had to learn many hard lessons along this line to keep both my mind and body in balance through HIS very word,and not through mine!
You mature through ones knowledge, for by this knowledge wisdom rises through our Jesus to us,to bear good fruit,and in this we understand and know the seed which was sown in our heart lies upon good ground!( matt 13:23!!) We have been blessed through you many times Tono, for your battle is never fought alone,you just had the guts to spill out things, many things others fight as well,but will not admit,and your reward for your confession,( james 5:15-16), is not only total forgiveness,but now, through our Jesus you fully understand how one is righteous! And!! How through our Jesus,we stay that way blameless!!( jude 1:24-25!!)
I am thankful for you brother,and my prayers will stay upon both your heart and your mind forever,so that you can do the very same to another who so needs this!!Blessing always brother! mark