i was taught about the bible until i was 11 years old in 1983. from then until 2009 i didn't read the bible or practice it. quite the opposite actually. in 2009 i wrote a confession and asked Jesus for help. i began to experience things i could only call supernatural at the time. with my understanding of the bible from 1983, i believed and followed with faith what i perceived. months later when i returned home, i tried to explain to a coworker about my experiences. he was a Christian. he said to me that what i was talking about was very similar to something he had read in the book of Romans. i told him i had not read a bible in decades. he gave me one.
when i read it, i felt like it had been written just for me. i now understood it. i could apply what it said to what i had experienced. it defined my experience clearer than i had perceived it. i had more experiences. i could see its teachings in action around me in society. by feb of 2010, i couldn't even really function. the enormity of its truth and its applications were so dominate i could do nothing but reflect and pray on it. since then i have tried to talk to people about it. i have tried to explain to them my understanding of what i have read. i have tried to explain to them how it is at work around them. i have tried to explain to them how to apply it for themselves.
and guess what,
for the most part people just don't seem to care. the non believers i knew for most of my life wont even talk with me anymore. they think i have fallen into the mad delusion. no shocker there, after all i was one of them. my family is pretty much the same. some believe, some don't. both tell me,"well that's nice, but don't let it keep you from living your life." basically, to them i should just keep going on like i was before 2009. the thing is, doing those things don't really matter to me. as for the group of non believers in society that i'm able to identify, they do not want to hear it. they don't believe. they are being given a chance to experience the bible in ways few people are. they wont even listen to the possibility. its very frustrating.
as for my fellow Christians, its not working there either. so much could be said about it, i can hardly pick which topic to focus on. the differences between denominations. multiple translations and interpretation of the bible. learning multiple languages as a prerequisite for understanding the bible. insistence on total conformity and agreement to their understanding and interpretation. all who do not think exactly as they do are damned or misled. its hard to speak ill of them. at least they are trying.
so here i sit alone,with more understanding of the bible than i ever thought possible. an understanding based on experience, that people don't want to hear cause they don't believe or people don't accept as it doesn't meet their learned understanding. its like having the cure for cancer and the people sick with cancer don't believe in the cure. the people who believe in the cure, argue with each other and don't know how to identify those with cancer or apply the cure.
the non believers and the believers, all have something in common. an unwillingness to listen to an understanding they don't believe. i cant show anyone the truth, only Jesus can do that. all i can do is try and teach people to recognize the truth when it is being offered to them. in the hopes they will follow it with faith. there is nothing left to debate with those who have no experience.
peace and love,
Duewell
when i read it, i felt like it had been written just for me. i now understood it. i could apply what it said to what i had experienced. it defined my experience clearer than i had perceived it. i had more experiences. i could see its teachings in action around me in society. by feb of 2010, i couldn't even really function. the enormity of its truth and its applications were so dominate i could do nothing but reflect and pray on it. since then i have tried to talk to people about it. i have tried to explain to them my understanding of what i have read. i have tried to explain to them how it is at work around them. i have tried to explain to them how to apply it for themselves.
and guess what,
for the most part people just don't seem to care. the non believers i knew for most of my life wont even talk with me anymore. they think i have fallen into the mad delusion. no shocker there, after all i was one of them. my family is pretty much the same. some believe, some don't. both tell me,"well that's nice, but don't let it keep you from living your life." basically, to them i should just keep going on like i was before 2009. the thing is, doing those things don't really matter to me. as for the group of non believers in society that i'm able to identify, they do not want to hear it. they don't believe. they are being given a chance to experience the bible in ways few people are. they wont even listen to the possibility. its very frustrating.
as for my fellow Christians, its not working there either. so much could be said about it, i can hardly pick which topic to focus on. the differences between denominations. multiple translations and interpretation of the bible. learning multiple languages as a prerequisite for understanding the bible. insistence on total conformity and agreement to their understanding and interpretation. all who do not think exactly as they do are damned or misled. its hard to speak ill of them. at least they are trying.
so here i sit alone,with more understanding of the bible than i ever thought possible. an understanding based on experience, that people don't want to hear cause they don't believe or people don't accept as it doesn't meet their learned understanding. its like having the cure for cancer and the people sick with cancer don't believe in the cure. the people who believe in the cure, argue with each other and don't know how to identify those with cancer or apply the cure.
the non believers and the believers, all have something in common. an unwillingness to listen to an understanding they don't believe. i cant show anyone the truth, only Jesus can do that. all i can do is try and teach people to recognize the truth when it is being offered to them. in the hopes they will follow it with faith. there is nothing left to debate with those who have no experience.
peace and love,
Duewell
