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I have had an amazing recent return to God. I would like to testify about it. When I was a young one things weren't always so great I dealt with alot of abuse I wont go too much into it it'd take too long but that's okay. Even still I felt that I generally did what was right and served God through it. My grandmother and family brought me alot of news about the good Lord. At some point in time in my teenage years I stopped going to chruch as often it became pretty much and off and on basis. I fell into sin when I graduated became very lazy, stole, and gambled alot. When I finally woke up from that I had gotten down to the point of almost bieng homeless from my addiction but thankfully my brother wanted to help me and I recovered from it. I was doing great for myself as far as the world as concerned got my own place job etc. I met a wonderful woman of God where I was working @ the time went on a date and things fell into place. She kept witnessing to me about what the good lord had been doing for her and I decieded it was time to start going back to church. Had a great breakthrough with Christ although to be honest now when I think about it I it was more or less to impress her rather than doing it for God even though I bielieved my motives weren't as pure as they should have been. That changed later on and God began removing those things in my life.
My realationship with her was great but I started pursuing immorality. Basically doing what tyical guys do. We never went "all the way" so to speak but there was still immorality bieng developed and bieng brought into our realationship. From then on it seemed that's all we ever did. Started fighting alot and spending way too much time together. We had always talked about marriage and I did want to marry her but the stress just grew more and more. I started spending less time with her and more time in sin. I started gambling again. Drinking with my friends and "smoking green tea" if you get my drift. It had gotten so bad to the point to where I was stealing from my place of work to re-support my old habit of gambling. I had gotten caught by my manager and was fired. I told her about it and it ulitmatley ended up ending our realationship. The fact that I had persued such Immorailty was also I feel a calling from God saying " I gave you something great and you did this with it" you reap what you sew. Immorality leads to death and where God leads to Eternal Life. I had just turned 22 at the culmination of these events.
For the next 2 years I became a numb person. Stopped going to church again shortly after that and fell back into sin. I would sit around for days doing the things listed above and play World of Warcraft pretty much 24/7 as well as working. I got away from gambling for the most part and ended up stopping playing wow which was a good start. Started working out alot and loosing alot of wieght and getting more healthy. But I just felt like something was missing because I was continuing to live for myself. I went to talk to my youth pastor and he gave me great council and even laid hands on me and prayed it brought tears to my eyes. This was about two weeks ago. I just started burying myself in God's word, praying, and trying to step away from anything of this world. It changed my life. I paid my tithe for the first time in a long time and just began to give so much. I had bought some food for the mission but they were closed so when I visited my brother I saw that he needed it and gave it to him praise God. I had already had a blessing waiting for me when I got home my roomate was like "Man I want a steak" ended up buying two with all the works, If you live in texas you know what that is
. It was great because he even had some turmoil going on and God was able to help witness to him through me. It's gotten to the point now to when sinful thoughts come in I can just shake my head and say "No" or "Get thee behind me satan in the name of Jesus I rebuke you" and it's helped so much. Granted i'm a human so i'm a slave to sin but i've made the choice to be the slave of God and it's changed my life. I dont have a hard heart when I give anymore and it's like my spiritual gift has always been giving. I remember reading recently in Epheasians Paul was saying something along the lines of "If you were once a thief give generiously". Amen. It's awesome because I barley have a pot to cook in but i'm still able to do so much because of what God has done for me. All praise and glory to him for changing my life and leading me back to him it's like the worries of the world have been lifted. That's what my problem was I saw my life bieng excellent as to what I had recieved in this world as material possesion now I rate it as amazing because of my new-found return to God and all that he's working through me.
I feel bad about all the people i've wronged along the way especally the woman of God I helped fall back into sin. But it's amazing how much mercy and grace he has that even for someone like me who has done alot of wrong in life God can just grab and use as an instrument of Faith rather than a tool of satan. I hope this testimony helps anyone and I can honestly say my life has never been better. I dont care about the world like I used too other than to help it as God wants me too. Now that doesn't mean that temptation and sin arent' still there because they are but God has helped me rid so much of it and i'm just ready to be his shining light in this corrupted world. All praise and glory to him forever and ever Amen.
Chris
My realationship with her was great but I started pursuing immorality. Basically doing what tyical guys do. We never went "all the way" so to speak but there was still immorality bieng developed and bieng brought into our realationship. From then on it seemed that's all we ever did. Started fighting alot and spending way too much time together. We had always talked about marriage and I did want to marry her but the stress just grew more and more. I started spending less time with her and more time in sin. I started gambling again. Drinking with my friends and "smoking green tea" if you get my drift. It had gotten so bad to the point to where I was stealing from my place of work to re-support my old habit of gambling. I had gotten caught by my manager and was fired. I told her about it and it ulitmatley ended up ending our realationship. The fact that I had persued such Immorailty was also I feel a calling from God saying " I gave you something great and you did this with it" you reap what you sew. Immorality leads to death and where God leads to Eternal Life. I had just turned 22 at the culmination of these events.
For the next 2 years I became a numb person. Stopped going to church again shortly after that and fell back into sin. I would sit around for days doing the things listed above and play World of Warcraft pretty much 24/7 as well as working. I got away from gambling for the most part and ended up stopping playing wow which was a good start. Started working out alot and loosing alot of wieght and getting more healthy. But I just felt like something was missing because I was continuing to live for myself. I went to talk to my youth pastor and he gave me great council and even laid hands on me and prayed it brought tears to my eyes. This was about two weeks ago. I just started burying myself in God's word, praying, and trying to step away from anything of this world. It changed my life. I paid my tithe for the first time in a long time and just began to give so much. I had bought some food for the mission but they were closed so when I visited my brother I saw that he needed it and gave it to him praise God. I had already had a blessing waiting for me when I got home my roomate was like "Man I want a steak" ended up buying two with all the works, If you live in texas you know what that is
. It was great because he even had some turmoil going on and God was able to help witness to him through me. It's gotten to the point now to when sinful thoughts come in I can just shake my head and say "No" or "Get thee behind me satan in the name of Jesus I rebuke you" and it's helped so much. Granted i'm a human so i'm a slave to sin but i've made the choice to be the slave of God and it's changed my life. I dont have a hard heart when I give anymore and it's like my spiritual gift has always been giving. I remember reading recently in Epheasians Paul was saying something along the lines of "If you were once a thief give generiously". Amen. It's awesome because I barley have a pot to cook in but i'm still able to do so much because of what God has done for me. All praise and glory to him for changing my life and leading me back to him it's like the worries of the world have been lifted. That's what my problem was I saw my life bieng excellent as to what I had recieved in this world as material possesion now I rate it as amazing because of my new-found return to God and all that he's working through me. I feel bad about all the people i've wronged along the way especally the woman of God I helped fall back into sin. But it's amazing how much mercy and grace he has that even for someone like me who has done alot of wrong in life God can just grab and use as an instrument of Faith rather than a tool of satan. I hope this testimony helps anyone and I can honestly say my life has never been better. I dont care about the world like I used too other than to help it as God wants me too. Now that doesn't mean that temptation and sin arent' still there because they are but God has helped me rid so much of it and i'm just ready to be his shining light in this corrupted world. All praise and glory to him forever and ever Amen.
Chris
