Well, today i made a decision..not sure if it was the best, but i followed what was in my heart... i broke it off with my boyfriend I am so tired and exhausted from the fighting, the tears I cry, and I am so tired of not being happy. It just seems as if though no matter what, me and him just can't seem to get along and maybe thats the point, maybe me and him aren't suppose to be together. IDK.. The only thing that worries me now is my daughter.. She is going to have to be raised by a split up family...And thats not fair to her..So what do i do, do I try to make things better for her sake..Or do i follow my heart and make this situation to where it will be better for the both of us? My heart is heavy and broken, i just dont know.
I don't intend this as mean or critical, but really, this is just the consequence of having children outside of a healthy marriage. Sometimes we just have to live with our choices. You say its not fair for her to have a split family, but it wasn't fair for her to not have a loving husband and wife as a start to her existence to begin with. At this point 'fair' goes out the window. Again, i don't mean that to be judgmental, i don't know you or your situation, just pointing out some truths with the intention to help.
Though i do think its wise that you broke up with your boyfriend. If you're arguing that much, and that badly now, getting married won't help. Marriage isn't a band aid, or meant to repair relationships. Marriage is meant for people who are emotionally healthy enough to understand and live out their roles in marriage as being selfless and sacrificing. If you two are arguing, its evident one or both of you are not ready for marriage.
Yes, its rough for a child to have a split family, but it would be worse if that child were raised in a family of anger, bitterness, fighting, and what would still end up in divorce.
Don't confuse feelings with the idea you are 'supposed' to be with someone. Feelings can be attached to anyone. That doesn't make them right.