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Three years ago, I knew that God had called me to be a missionary. Skip ahead a year and I found myself at the bottom of my faith: I had been cutting, been abandoned (and unofficially kicked out of) the church here (it's a long story.), my parents were done with me, I was so confused about what the truth was when it came to the existence of a god and who He was, and had been claiming to be an atheist. Months later at church camp, God really revealed Himself to me in a very loving and personal way and my faith had been restored.
Lately though, I've been reminded of that calling three years ago, and I know that it's still what I'm meant to do. The problem? I graduate high school next year, and I'm still so weak in my faith. I don't talk about God or spread the gospel to anyone because maybe I'm still a little unsure myself. And that passion that I used to have is gone. I feel so beaten and afraid spiritually and mentally. I don't know if I'm ready to do what God has called me to do.
Another thing: my boyfriend says that because the Bible says that women cannot preach over men and that they should be quiet in the church means that they cannot be missionaries. But HOW do you explain this calling? I'm so confused....
Lately though, I've been reminded of that calling three years ago, and I know that it's still what I'm meant to do. The problem? I graduate high school next year, and I'm still so weak in my faith. I don't talk about God or spread the gospel to anyone because maybe I'm still a little unsure myself. And that passion that I used to have is gone. I feel so beaten and afraid spiritually and mentally. I don't know if I'm ready to do what God has called me to do.
Another thing: my boyfriend says that because the Bible says that women cannot preach over men and that they should be quiet in the church means that they cannot be missionaries. But HOW do you explain this calling? I'm so confused....