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Hello,
I'm in an extremely dark place in my life right now & could really use some prayer. I'm 32, was married for 10 years, and have two beautiful children who mean the world to me. Unfortunately, several months ago, I made the biggest series of mistakes that I've ever made in my life, and they're going to cost me my wife, my children, and my freedom.
Long story short, I got involved in some criminal online activity. I wont go into detail online, but there's a very real possibility that I may be looking at substantial jail time. I wish I had a good answer as to why I did what I did, but I can really only chalk it up to making extremely stupid decisions that I wish I'd never made. After finding out, my wife has decided to divorce me, and the divorce becomes final in late March. She's seeking sole custody as well. So right now, I'm going from a father who had an active role in my childrens' daily lives to not knowing the next time I'm going to see them, and it's tearing my heart out. This, on top of the extreme fear I'm facing knowing I could be going to jail, on top of the extreme guilt I'm feeling for letting my former wife and children down is a combination of thoughts that is completely overwhelming me.
I know that I'm at fault here, and I've done my best to pray for God to forgive me, but I'm still in deep, deep despair over the loss of my wife and kids. If anyone reading this can pray for me, I'd really appreciate it. I really don't want to end my life, but the suicidal thoughts are becoming more and more severe.
Thanks for reading.
I'm in an extremely dark place in my life right now & could really use some prayer. I'm 32, was married for 10 years, and have two beautiful children who mean the world to me. Unfortunately, several months ago, I made the biggest series of mistakes that I've ever made in my life, and they're going to cost me my wife, my children, and my freedom.
Long story short, I got involved in some criminal online activity. I wont go into detail online, but there's a very real possibility that I may be looking at substantial jail time. I wish I had a good answer as to why I did what I did, but I can really only chalk it up to making extremely stupid decisions that I wish I'd never made. After finding out, my wife has decided to divorce me, and the divorce becomes final in late March. She's seeking sole custody as well. So right now, I'm going from a father who had an active role in my childrens' daily lives to not knowing the next time I'm going to see them, and it's tearing my heart out. This, on top of the extreme fear I'm facing knowing I could be going to jail, on top of the extreme guilt I'm feeling for letting my former wife and children down is a combination of thoughts that is completely overwhelming me.
I know that I'm at fault here, and I've done my best to pray for God to forgive me, but I'm still in deep, deep despair over the loss of my wife and kids. If anyone reading this can pray for me, I'd really appreciate it. I really don't want to end my life, but the suicidal thoughts are becoming more and more severe.
Thanks for reading.