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i'm not feeling it. i am not feeling they way i was before and what makes it worse is i am not really having the desire i did to get back on track. this always happens to me i will do good for a short period of time and then burn out and not really care anymore. i am tired of this cycle. i want it to be one or the other,either i am going to follow God fully or not at all. this in between crap makes me sick. i want to have a fun life but not one filled with sin. i just want some christians in my area that are like me in what they like that i can connect with but that seems to be impossiable. the people in the churches around here are nothing like me. the people here period seem to be nothing like me, male or female. i don't know where to look. i know i am in awkward position because what seems like everybody my age is either in school or just got out of school and still have that high school mind set that i hated when i was in school. i just want some friends to have fun with and the icing on the cake would be if they were christians that were stronger than me and could help me out. i just don't know