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Unfortunately, in a couple instances I find myself telling stories of my past in a positive light. And I know it's not coming from a Christ following perspective. I've been saved my whole life and I'm not sure how good of a person I am. I'm trying to figure myself out and figure out how to have the correct attitude to grow in holiness. If I am so passionate to know and love God yet I'm also passionate about speaking and thinking of sinful things like fornication with my ex-girl friend, then who am I? I want to know if I'm blameless. Living above reproach. Because just by looking at my life someone would probably say that I'm below average on the holiness scale, but I suppose they would also be confused at how much I genuinely and honestly desire God. I desire Him aboundingly, desiring Him for who He is rather than just what He can give.
The problem is that sometimes I think about the inappropriate things we did as something to be proud of/brag about or have a fondness of. And I know that this is my flesh and my bipolar illness that does this to me.
The problem is that sometimes I think about the inappropriate things we did as something to be proud of/brag about or have a fondness of. And I know that this is my flesh and my bipolar illness that does this to me.