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Hi there! I've been pretty much an atheist for a while now.
I grew up in church as a kid. Then one day I just realized, " I feel so forced to believe in this. I don't truly believe. "
Then I started looking into atheist theories, and I just slowly but surely lost faith.
And the last couple of years, I've been kind of depressed.
It just made get so sad over the "fact" that the world just popped up ( atheist belief, I'm not saying that's true, ). Random chance.
I felt, and still feel like Earth's beauty is worth so much more.
I've just been crying myself to sleep, I can't get over it. I kind of want to look into believing in Jesus.
I just feel like I can't believe in/love Jesus because deep down, I always have doubts.
If He loves me so much, then how do I love Him back in return?
I feel like when I try to love him and believe in him, it's puny compared to, say, a preacher's belief and love for God.
I want to believe in Jesus so bad! I want to have a kind of joy in my soul.
Do you all have any advice for seeking Him? Are there any ex-atheists on this website?
Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this.
I grew up in church as a kid. Then one day I just realized, " I feel so forced to believe in this. I don't truly believe. "
Then I started looking into atheist theories, and I just slowly but surely lost faith.
And the last couple of years, I've been kind of depressed.
It just made get so sad over the "fact" that the world just popped up ( atheist belief, I'm not saying that's true, ). Random chance.
I felt, and still feel like Earth's beauty is worth so much more.
I've just been crying myself to sleep, I can't get over it. I kind of want to look into believing in Jesus.
I just feel like I can't believe in/love Jesus because deep down, I always have doubts.
If He loves me so much, then how do I love Him back in return?
I feel like when I try to love him and believe in him, it's puny compared to, say, a preacher's belief and love for God.
I want to believe in Jesus so bad! I want to have a kind of joy in my soul.
Do you all have any advice for seeking Him? Are there any ex-atheists on this website?
Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this.